i guess, i have to wake up and smell the coffee!

its hard to understand why to a certain extend, you'd have to be the one who has to take care of peoples feelings.

i dont understand why from time to time, why can't it be my feelings that is taken care of.

most of the time, i'd have to accommodate, why can't i be accommodated for?

is it so hard? or maybe i just don't seem to show it?

would it even matter if i did? i guess not...

i've been observing, giving, some have been receiving, and not appreciating.

seriously... i'm just disappointed at this point.

there's no point in fighting, no point in pleasing.

nothing you do, is going to change anything.

friday - hubs' birthday!

the anticipation kicked in early in the morning. however, both of us took our time to get ready and head for traders hotel. infact, we finished playing a game of scrabulous on facebook first, only then we decided to pack our bags and get ready.


hubs was kept in the dark bout the whole thinga-mag-jigg. so it was cool.


arrived at the traders, checked in, and we took the buggy to klcc! hehe, yes i know its a walking distance but i could not resist sitting on one of those, and so we did.


we had our lunch in spring garden, it felt really great, it was just the two of us and it felt like we were on a date! well, at least i really enjoyed it. then we were in kinokuniya, oh gosh, its not safe going to kino... no no not in terms of security reasons, in terms of spending your money reasons! its rather difficult not to buy any books from there. so we splurged.


we made our way back to the hotel, walked along the park. we had fun, we held hands, and laughed out loud, not caring about people around us, and then suddenly, i remembered... "oh god forbid that we show any kind of affection towards each other, a couple of years back... the non malay couple was given a summon for receiving a kiss on the forehead for indecent act in public" what nonsense is that?!

took pictures. laughed. i was singing. he was laughing at me and my stupidity. we were happy.

he was still kept in the dark about tonight.

received a couple of phone calls. booking was confirmed. a couple of lies here and there and it was good to go.

got ready for dins at GOBO, had our starters to share, the wagyu beef, then we had the venison pasta, yums! yes it was finger licking good.

more lies. he was deceived. more calls. i pretended. then we made our way to skybar at 10p.m.

amir and aliza was there, and then the rest walked in right after... he was surprised, i was thrilled. birthday cake arrived, friends sat down, chatted, laughed the night away. it was pleasant.

there was very few of us there, but it was those that was close to his heart; "friends who was there through thick and thin, those who stood by you... no matter what, those who supported you despite wrong or right, those who you, live by... those that you realize you'd want to grow old with... no explanations needed or required..."

C.S. Lewis:
Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one."

errands, errands and musical

i had a girly session on my own today after dropping hubs for a meeting, i decided i needed a ME time so i headed to the saloon, get my hair done. i know i could wash it at home, but i can't frigging blow dry my hair to perfection, so i rather not kid myself and save me all the trouble and pain.

went around quite a bit today, i was in bangsar village twice, once was to pick up the laundry, and then picked hubs, send him back and headed there again to meet up with my girl friend and the wedding planner!

i was rather worried that she had asked some random aunty to become her wedding planner, not that i'm doubting her at all, i was just worried... hehe, not saying that those aunty will make your wedding worse, its just that there will be loads of protocol and it will be as nitty-gritty and that would contribute to your migrane, if you have none, that will be the start.

however, the wedding planner was just-like-us, excluding the crazy part. she's in the same age group, simple, extremely soft-spoke (nothing like us), she was extremely open to ideas and she had loads to suggests too! it was a good meeting i would say.

as we were having the meeting, i bumped into moms' old friend, she asked what i was doing now... like every other day, i looked at her and replied... "a housewife for now... i'm looking for a job... anything in mind for me?..." and i grinned. she said ohhh... sounds good, you can send me your cv! i'm attached to the bank now and i'm under HR. "alamak... bank la pulak!" maybe. who knows.

***

we got dressed and left the house at 730p.m. headed towards jalan tun razak! and not to my surprise it was all jammed up... i don't mind being stuck in the jam, i just didn't want to be late for the musical.

as soon as we arrived at istana budaya, the place was swarmed with vips', so we just stood aside and 'people watch'... i like. there were many was properly dressed for the occassion, but there are just some malaysians who still remained ignorant and lived in treehouses. nevermind.

the p.ramlee musical started at 830p.m. and ended by 1130p.m. i have to say, datin seri tiara outdid herself on the musical set!! adlin aman ramlie, was an impeccable director and lyricist. not forgetting zahim albakri, the other director...

i would also like to take this opportunity to congratulate the rest of the cast! they did a splendid job...

sean ghazi - p. ramlee

azizah - dato' siti nurhaliza

atilia - junaidah (1st marriage)

melissa saila - norizan (2nd marriage)

liza hanim - saloma (3rd marriage... til the end of time...)

saloma sings these words at the end of the play:

"dan siapakah dia

yang telah berjaya

menghuni di hati

kita semua?

dia telah membawa

makna dan kenangan

cinta yang pertama..." (taken from the program book)

the only thing that i thought should have been incorporated would have to be more of the great allahyarhams original songs...

we left feeling happy, knowing that the one question that the great p.ramlee had, had been answered... he is remembered till today!

it hit midnight, when we were in the car, and it was time for me to wish hubs, "happy birthday!!" hope you had a wonderful eve! i sure did...

bluergh

i've been assigned to compose a short write up on "the value of PR in the marketing process" any takers? it has to be at least 100 words.

i promise i'd give you my unconditional love and a treat to tony roma's. hehe...

anyone? any...

going once, going twice, okay laahh... i'll do it my self...

okay i should not procrastinate! damn it.

the usual

...monday...

some people like mondays, some hate em! i think for me it doesn't make a difference now until i start working again! hmm... to be honest i kind of miss the working environment, but when i think about it again, i might just change my mind all together :)

we decided that it was long due already, and that we should make an effort to meet up. we would consist of - hani, hadi, dee, and jon, mr. "byronness" was missing in action, we were at our usual hangout place o.u, non other than chilli's.

then the girls had the brightest and most brilliant idea! they wanted to check out topshop. oh ohhh! all these months i have been a rather good girl, keeping my money attached to my wallet. hah, we tried on clothes and boy-oh-boy, hani sure is persuasive! hahaha...

but other than that i can't be blaming her, i just have to blame my self for liking these unnecessary clothes and shoes...

after shopping we decided to go for the huff and puff session, and order ourselves a drink at chilli's again, well... hubs was still there so it wasn't that bad. hubs was sitting down with deric explaining some 'financial management' stuff... which i find rather... "ahhhh YAWN!" yeap guessed it right, hani was rather interested cause this is something she had learn in college. i just had my 'blonde mode' switched on, right hani? rical? mia? fifo? whatever laaa...

we right briefly after i had a fool out of myself...

back home hubs packed his bag for futsal and then we left the house back within 20 minutes, and he was back in o.u. i however, had to find excuses not to go for futsal earlier, received a call from mommy, thank god! saved by her... again...

la la la... by 1120 i made my way back to o.u, and yes for the third time today... walked to the futsal courts and met faris, i just love the juicy details he had for us! haha, it was hilarious.

.stupido.

"i am so hating my internet connection right now!"... i feel that i could just grab the next person that walks infront of me and rip his/her freaking hands apart just to make me happy!!

and then i realize that it would totally unreasonable to act this way because of a bad internet connection, maybe i could only act this way when they decide to cut any access to my comet, and cut my ties to all my tv series, only then i will be allowed to act in such manner!

i'm currently trying to upload photos onto my facebook, but that does not seem to work now, which pisses the living day lights out of me... hah! i think i'm going to sleep now and don't get nightmares about it! damn damn damn.

moodness...

saturday 20.10.07

unforseen circumstances had me cancelling on the invitations to the open house for today! during the day, due to the heavy rain! at night was due to, closed doors discussions!
fever has gone, the flu decided to stay on as i guess it feels kind of comfortable with me! which sucks, i sound so muffled. no, not sexy, at all... cough is rather tiring and digusting! bloody hell man...

sunday 21.10.2007

brunch at khannaa, with a couple of friends, it was rather a brief one. i get easily tired now days sitting and too long at the mamaks, its either i get irritated with the service or with the other patrons, yeah! i know, i know the world does not revolve around me...

but when you get irritated, you can't help it!

so we left the place...

well actually to be honest, we left because 'perut pun dah kenyang'... hehe... i like being dramatic sometimes, even though my brother thinks its not "too dramatic yeh bang??" okay la, i'm not an interesting person today... and i'm in no mood to blog, but i just thought i should just write out of boredom.

another thing i did today, a little confession to my friends, boredom got me joining Facebook which i have been dreading for the last 2 months! i finally did it. it still gives me headaches, i think it's not well organized, and today my internet connection sucks. so the album that i uploaded only has 5 photos! hmmpphhh...

everything i do today is affected by my mood. gila mengada!! such pettiness, which i hate but feeling it currently...

inspired

yesterday, while driving around kl-pj-back to kl-then pj-hartamas-pj again, i suddenly felt inspired! not to become a driver! but to come up with my own business plan and concept, hopefully i have my funders in place... and the help i need to back me up with these plans... so far i've discussed this matter only with family members, not that 'i kedekut rahsia' but i just don't want to jinx it before hand. so friends, i ask a favor from you to say a little prayer for me, for the small little idea of mine to succeed!

*smiling to herself* if only it would work!

*cartwheels*cartwheels* and slams into the wall! cause i'm such a big klutz, right? right!

toodles!! oh for those who is interested in contributing as in being a generous funder for my little project, you are most WELCOME!!

felt strongly about it

as i was totally done running around and completing my chores, i had the strong urge to pay a little visit to the other new mall, 'the gardens'.

as we were driving around, i can't help but to think to myself, i do not understand why they have to open malls in k.l. which is half completed! it is rather annoying when you are driving around the vacinity of the mall, and looking at the rubbles and more construction materials being placed on the ground or you can still see the scaffolding and stuff! yes, not sight for the sore eye.

it really spoils the mood and ambiance to the mall all-togetherr! you get what i mean? but i so wanted to check this place out so yeah, it did not matter to me.

parked the car and walked towards the entrance, the plastics that was placed on the walls were not properly taken off, and many many more! nevermind, not going to complain for the mo. walked in, and we noticed something in common that we malaysians see and face, ALL the shopping malls here would have the SAME shops or outlets in EVERY different mall. what's the use of it? seriously?!! i wished, someone would have a different approach to it. seriously!!

we headed straight to robinsons as that would be the main reason as to why we picked to visit the gardens anyway... i was quite happy while walking in robinsons, it was well organized! the first floor had the cosmetics area, then the handbags and the shoes, together with some accessories. cool eh?

more on women's apparels on the 1st floor, and half was men, the price range was pretty affordable, well they had the non-affordable stuff too, just that i wasn't interested to check them out. but the highlight of the visit is to look at the HOUSEHOLD stuff/goods. i was in love with what they have to offer their clients...

then we walked out of robinsons after much *beranganness* was put to thought! gila okay, i was excited suddenly and i saw how much i wanted my future house to look like, this and that!

there was another shop that made me really happy and excited too, a shop next to robinsons called 'pavillion' if i'm not mistaken! they had all the cookery from australia, which is rather funky looking and serves its purpose.

i've never felt so sad in my entire life after walking out of a shop and wasn't able to buy anything from it!! but i felt strongly for this. i saw the dough mixer machine, it uses the electricity and all, well designed, *the old school looks* and apparently used by one of the top chefs of australia! asked the price and got extremely disheartened it would have been, a *DAY LIGHT ROBERRY* purchase.

ergh. blegh. bluek. dang. damn. jeng. yeah all sorts of emotions was going through me... owh well, i guess that is a part of life, whereby it'll only be worth every penny when you've spent your own money, only then you learn to appreciate these things.

lessons on field trips!

up by 820a.m. only to learn that we were 30 minutes late! we were suppose to be up earlier, suppose to be ready by now, suppose to be on the way to pick farouk up, suppose to be in raju's by 9... yeah yeah everything is suppose to this and that. we got ready and got our asses to farouk's whom overslept too!

got to raju's where the rest was already waiting for us, zadey, liana and my bro... wow, its been more than a month since we were last seen at raju's... even the waiter got excited when he saw hubs and i walking towards him, "ehhhh, sudah lamaaaa tarak jumpaaa!! kamu sudah hilang manyak lama...." we smiled politely and uttered something like, "bulan puasa la anee, macam mana mau datang makan??!" gila ke apa?

as soon as azila and iwan arrived we made our way to bulatan pandan, and followed our instincts to get ourselves to the M.O mall. yes, ladies and gents, apparently today we travel in packs and we felt like it was a field trip and those outings when we were 18 or 19 together with friends, except for now everyone has driving license and has a car... not borrowing parents cars to go out anymore... hehe...

instincts was not working in full capacity today, we kept on turning to the wrong lanes, wrong areas, entered the industrial zone, the housing area, you name it we were there! finally, we found taman shamelin! my goodness, this place is not funny man... GILA ULU! looked around and drove around for another 15 minutes, and then we saw the spot light on the M.O mall!

*aahhhhhh* yeay...

entered the mall and walked in the men's section for like 2 seconds, and we said, "ehhh, boys sorry enjoy browsing we're going up stairs to look for ours..." they had loads to look at, clothes, shoes, and handbags, most of their handbags were off by 50% from the high street price, i kid you not... an aigner hand-carry luggage is RM1550 from RM3,600. the brands that they carried was tods, boss, aigner, furla, stuart weitzman, even the ones from the local scene like; melinda looi, farah khan, milo... and many many more... i was happy!! i'm already eyeing a few stuff, but i'll only get it later later later wayyyyy later when i have a great job supported by a huge amount of paycheck!

then we wanted to grab some lunch at restaurant ros 911 which not to my surprise was closed due to it being the 5th day of raya!

lobbied to the boys and we made our way to pavillion instead! hehe, as we were walking up, i smelled donuts and we're talking about the good ones yeah, yesss i was right it was JCO! which originated from Jakarta!

whoo-peee-dooo-deee!! but the queue was a bitch, so we left and looked for a place to eat our lunch, we had no choice as only limited shops were open and limited space was offered due to the lunch hour while we were there. bodohkan? yes very the! ate at pastamania, can do betta than that at home, pay me the money and i shall cook it for ya!! honest to goodness.

i saw my favorite cafe in pavillion being constructed! *the names PAUL! *awesome smowsome, i tell ya* i was just excited and i almost screamed. we walked and viewed the shops there, well to be honest in malaysia any new malls would have the same old shops offered in every goddamn mall, BORING! but pavillion looks good though... that's abourrrr it! it was almost 3 and it was drizzling, we decided it'll be the best time to leave kl back to pj and so we did!

the lesson for todays outing:

1. make sure you know what you want so you don't blow your money on unnecessary things!

2. make sure you know the directions towards the destination, so you don't seem like the stupid expat!

3. get your ass to the bank before you go out in packs, cause that can be rather irritating!

4. never ever get cheerleaders/friends/girlfriends to go with you to expensive boutiques as it'll only be more encouraging for you to purchase those REALLY EXPENSIVE items, and your ass will be broke for the rest of the month.

5. make sure the malls you're headed to, have sections for men so they don't have to follow you around and tell you...

THINGS THAT THEY'RE ABSOLUTELY CLUELESS ABOUT, WOMENS FASHION :)

must have been really sick

the whole morning i felt restless, bored and tired. so the best medicine for me is to get a great massage! mom messaged me and asked if i was interested to do so by 10. hell yea!!

an hour felt life 5 minutes, i wished i could go longer... however i had already made lunch plans with hubs and a couple of my friends to meet up at greenwood. by the time we got there it was drizzling, guuurrreat! i'm just about to recover. anyhoo, we ordered our food and voila! within 15 minutes it was ready, i was sooooo hungry as i had no appetite what so ever for breakfast, *yes, i must have been really sick, because i never lose my appetite to eat*.

we were there for almost 3 hours or so, as we were having our coffee it rained cats and dogs, metaphorically, not literally! that would be kinda crazy don't you think?

the boys were rather 'semangat' to play badminton, i brought along my gears just in case i was feeling way better to join their game... we stayed and chatted slightly longer over dessert and more coffee... by the time the rain subsided it was 430p.m. and i wasn't feeling or getting any better, in fact my temperature was kind of high. so yeah, i decided to go back to my parents and recuperate while watching ugly betty and private practice.

*yes, i was really sick!*

by the time they finished badminton, i met up with hubs, iwan and azila at ss2 for a quick din-din, which took longer than expected... a lot of shops were closed and the 5 of us and the rest of those who ate in ss2 might have ordered from the same shop so they took longer than usual to cook and serve us! damn it. waited longer. *tsk, tsk, tsk*

we got home by 9p.m. showered and i was all dressed in my jammies. ready to sleep, we decided not to go to azila's as we were both tired, even though hubs was the only one between the two of us who did sports today... blame it on my fever and flu yeah...

mumbo-jumbo-3rd-day-of-Eid!

The buzzing message tone woke me up early in the morning, as been said in the previous blog we had decided that our open house was going to be organized today! This is due to the fact that some of our friends will start working by tomorrow, which is rather absurd! I was extremely sick, but the show must go on…

yes the show will go on!!

From 730a.m. I was in the kitchen cracking my head trying to get myself together to organize what I should cook first. So I decided since the chicken was half way done I might as well continue with the gravy, yes, indeed I am referring to my ‘ayam masak merah’ some might call it ‘ayam masak tomato’. In the middle of cooking the gravy, I had no choice but to taste it and guess what? I BURNED MY TONGUE! Not surprised right? Right! Not only had I lost the ability to taste the food, but I had lost the feelings on my tongue… all together. Great, just great! Won’t be able to taste the rest of the food I was going to cook, I was highly dependent on hubs and my brother!

Next was the fried spaghetti, yes you read it right, it is fried! Malay style fried pasta, hehe… used Malay spices and condiments for this, doesn’t sound right kan? Claiming its Malay condiments pulak. Haha, okay leave me alone. Anyway right after I started working on, the vegetarian ‘lontong’, well first attempt, hope it was alright. Then worked on the batter for ‘roti jala’ which I had followed the exact measurements from a recipe book. I honestly felt like, “calling those idiotic of chefs that shared their recipe slapping them silly” I don’t know whether it is done on purpose, the batter measurement was all SCREWED UP! It was still too thick; yeah so chef shereen and chef hadi was to the rescue… and then TA-DA, it totally worked.

We fried the starters which 'roti gulung' it has corned beef filling, and chillies coated with eggs, similar to french toast. Heated up the rest of the rendangs beef and chicken, then the peanut sauce or better known as kuah kacang, and then i looked at the kitchen again, it looked like it was going to EXPLODE, BA-DA-BOOM! I was worried as hell, if my guests were to arrive when my kitchen was still in that state, thank god mom loaned me her maid and we were able to get the kitchen cleaned before they arrived.

Lastly, i cut all the cakes, placed it on the serving platter and cooked beef curry, i thought buying the australian beef would make it easier, i would not have to cook the beef as long as i would have to on the indian beef... but somehow, it did not... and i had not gotten ready and when i looked up it was already 1230p.m.

*damn, damn, damn*

Left the kitchen immediately, got ready and put on a non-raya dress, i wasn't in the mood to dress up in raya clothes as i wanted to move freely, and as usual if you do put on your raya dress you'd have to be extremely prim and proper, which i'm totally useless for!

it was all ready by 1p.m. my kitchen was super clean and the table was already filled with food arranged according to different combination, yesss i knowwww it shouldn't even matter right? wrong! i like to make it easier on my guests.

finally our first guest arrived and it continued from 1p.m. and the last of the guest left by 8p.m. i would have to say that our first attempt on entertaining more than 10 guests had worked and it was a success, that we were serving malay cuisine instead of our western cuisine like always! i hope everyone left with some sort of satisfaction with the "kenyangness"...

although a few was not in town on that day, fret not there should be more coming your way...

day 02 of eid

since yesterday we were busy entertaining at parents' place, we decided to indulge at a friends place instead... most of the open house that we've been invited to is all after lunch. we had the liberty of waking up late, taking our sweet time drinking coffee and getting ready to look sweet and purrrtty!

i was still under the weather mind you... so yeah i wasn't in the best of moods. i was just trying not to lose my temper or get easily irritated which is extremely difficult, *even a drop of water or pin would irritate the living hell out of me. but i try, so so hard to just ignore everything. *woosa*

by 2p.m. we decided to make a move to hartamas heights, yes headed to faris's open house. this is the 3rd time going to faris's and everytime before we reach his house i would have a great laugh as there is a hugeeeeee mansion a couple of houses away from his, FULLY DECORATED with ELEPHANTS!! oh gosh... seriously its MADNESS i tell you... well more like HIDEOUS if you ask my sincere opinion, some said it looks like the maharajah palace or something... but anyhoo, it seriously never seem to fail to amuze me. *hodoh sebenarnya!*

we stayed and waited for some of our friends to arrive, and tried to catch up with all the different activities at the same time. before we realized it, it was already 4p.m. so yeah we left abruptly headed to TMC, to shop for groceries since we were having our own makan-makan session, next day.

got home, we prepped the food and all... and finally after we were done we got ready and headed straight to a friends place for a quaint bbq! finally we broke out of the conventional raya food! hehe, it was pretty refreshing... we sat down and quizzed everyone of every teka-teki we had... *hilarious gila ok!!* you had to be there to witness all the frustrated facial expressions...

for example:

> "...dalam banyak-banyak pintu, pintu yang manakah yang ditolak oleh sepuluh orang pun takkan terbuka?"

> "police station mana yang paling dekat?"

> "2 fathers, and 2 sons, went on a fishing trip, each one of them caught a fish, but by the time they looked at their bucket they only had 3 fishes... why is that?"

yeah these were just some of it... i can't remember the whole thinga-mag-jig!

i was ill, so i was only giggling and smiling... *and eating all their cookies, and jellies... hahaha! if their mom wants to make a living out of these things, i will vouch for her food ANYTIME! yyuuummay.

i was pretty adventurous to go home and continue the preparation and stuff, but my head was spinning and temperature was rising... yeah not a pretty sight! i wished it would all go away the next day...

oh yeah, before i terlupa the answers for each questions:

> pintu yang bertulis "tarik"

> police station, "setapak"

> because there was 3 generations there, 1 grandfather, 1 father and 1 son! that's why they only had 3 fishes...

okay silly i know, but you know the littlest things makes you happy! well cheap thrill, and all but its the company that matters at the end of the day... it really makes a difference.

day 01 of eid

menu at the in-laws: rendang ayam, rendang daging, nasi impit, lemang, ketupat palas, and mutton curry. that was what we had for the first round, the morning of eid. as soon as we were done eating, we segregated the hampers that was given to my in-laws, hehe yes we get to call on what we want! cool eh?

right after all that, we made our way to my parents' place... thank god that the crowd wasn't as big yet! so yeah, in-laws was with us and told them to head for the food straight after greeting my parents... hehe so they don't have to queue up later. smart right?

anyway, on the first day of eid is when i ask for forgiveness from my parents/inlaws, and its usually an emotional one for me... asking someone to forgive you from all your sins is not an easy task, mine usually starts with a smile and ends with tears! yes, indeed my life is filled with dramatic moments, and i'm always afraid that i might have said something to my parents/inlaws that might hurt their feelings or something, so yeah... that's the feeling i get all the time. therefore, seeking for forgiveness from them is an emotional thing! anyhoo... *enough about me*

menu at parents: soto ayam, nasi minyak, ayam masak merah, vegetarian dhalca, acar buah, nasi impit, rendang daging, and rendang ayam...

a lot of dad's friends came today, mom and myself were sitting at the corner laughing... usually it'll be slightly difficult to get dad to invite his friends, therefore the open house will be filled with mom's and my friends on the first day! well i guess he enjoyed himself, which is good.

i was surrounded by cute little monsters, mom's friends babies and all... but i love them to bits! its so nice seeing them grow up and all... spoke to a couple of friends, told them to drop by over at parents' if they're around pj... and they did! which was pleasant too...

it rained heavily in the eve, as it was pouring, i felt that my body temp was rising up! so told hubs it would be good if we could make a move right after the rain stopped and we did. as soon as i got home i watched the latest episode of ugly betty for 20 minutes and crashed... woke up at 9 to eat my medicine, watched some telly and back to bed by 11...

hope i'll recover soon...

the maid in me...

morning - took out the trash, sort out the chambre à coucher (bedroom), washed all the clothes, and then blogged for a short while.

mid morning - vacuum the house, and sorted out the balcony... cause it was getting dusty and filled with dead leaves.

lunch - got ready, drove to klcc to sort out last minute stuff - bought another chocolate cake, got some groceries, and left within 59 minutes.
made a pit stop at china town or better known as petaling street to get fresh flowers for my house and moms, yes i'm seriously sick in the head as i like having fresh flowers and i make it a habit for every raya to get it!

mid lunch - home, started cleaning again... sorted the plates, biscuits, vases, washed all the floormat, mopped the floors, vacuumed, vacuumed, and vacuumed again. scrubbed the kitchen floor like the mad woman/maid that i am... yes i get extremely worked out if my house isn't tidy. then sorted out the flowers into vases... and washed the toilets.

as soon as i was done with all those, i smiled to myself... i am completely satisfied :)

eve - at parents place, dins and sorted out some stuff for mom too... biscuits, arranging of stuff and ermm... i was her professional florist!

supper - was in alexis, met the future husband of a good friend of mine! we had an excellent time together, it was a pleasant evening and we really like him... and babes just in case you do get to read this! you seriously deserve all the happiness in the world! i think its high time that you go out with a MAN instead of a BOY! hehe... okay loquita? i can't wait to be involved in the whole planning thing... excited, happy, jumping for joy, ermm... and every other word you can think of la...

sorry, no big words what so ever to describe my feelings and emotions towards this as the maid is extremely tired and her brainwaves are getting slower by the minute... eh no seconds to be more honest!

good night and "wishing all my family members and friends, a joyous eid mubarak!" not forgetting, forgive me for all my wrong doings if any...

little miss klutz in action

11.10.2007

its going to be oneee hectic day! but i was excited nonetheless, early in the morning i was up aside from getting ready to go back to my hometown i was busy talking to 'bobbins' and if you're wondering why my friend has such a weird name, just stop wondering all together, cause this is moi fat cat!/cats! hehe... plural is needed here, if only you know his gigantic size!

oh before i forget, happy birthday andy and naidi!

okay back to the plan, we both got ready and mom had some last minute work to settle, so she said okay you wait at home and i'll go collect the stuff then pick you up. ohh mom, i don't like to play the waiting game, i told her i'd drive her there instead and make our way back to rembau right after. that's exactly what we did. the traffic wasn't bad at all... infact we got there within an hour, yes with my driving... can you believe that?

we didn't want to waste time at all, as soon as we got there we headed straight to my grandparents and aunty's grave, we placed fresh flowers, watered the earth, pulled out the weeds (not the ones you get high on) and cleaned the whole area. *it was an emotional moment for all of us* how i wish i had been close to both my grandparents and my aunt, you are missed dearly... (al-fatihah). had you still been alive, i would be spoilt as hell, i know that for a fact...

"oh oh, by the way as i was trying to cross to get to the graveyard, i was stepping over the barb-wire and guess what? hehe, yes i lost my balance, cause my jeans got caught and i slipped and got some cuts on my right arm"... not surprised right? righttt....

as soon as we were done, we walked back to the house and changed to head to my uncles place which was like 5 minutes away. however, we did not get there within 5 minutes, instead we took about 35 minutes to get there... no no jam what-so-ever, we made a pit stop! hahah... we saw some stalls selling "kuih raya". yeah indeed we're not done with these kuih raya business... by the time we were done, oh gosh, the back seat of moms car was filled. *blushing* well actually mom did most of the shopping, i swear!

urmm, i have a little confession, as we were driving... i had the urge to eat! and i did! i tak tahan and i celebrated raya 2 days earlier! woops, yes i have to put into account that i'll have to ganti like so many-many-many days. anyway, i wasn't the only one, as soon as we were approaching the kitchen door i smelled the ciggarette smoke, only to learn that my uncle too had celebrated his raya 2 days earlier! we sat had coffee, chatted, he cooked, and i was just dying to eat his rendang! he is one of the best male cooks ever! i kid you not. he was tempting me to eat the rendang with rice pulak tu!! tsk tsk tsk... NEVER ever TEMPT me like THAT again!! well i took half of what he offered, i had the rendang only, no rice. it was a pleasant trip back. i enjoyed it.

we left by 230p.m. got back to kl by 330p.m. and headed straight to hyatt through the jam! seriously, i just don't understand with the amount of new highways, flyovers, shortcuts, it amount of cars on the roads are just unbearable. anyhoo, i got home by 500p.m. or so... rested and got ready for tahlil at my in-laws!

managed to see hubs little cousins, well not little anymore they're all above 18 already all grown up! and good looking too... (yes, free ad for them!) it was seriously nice. i was like a little girl being around them... hehe... okay la i'll be honest, i thought i was their age ok? happy?

met up with some friends at taman tun, and called it a night... ahh... tiring but completely satisfying, about everything...

oh me oh my

bangsar, to run some errands, and then decided to watch a movie and do some serious window shopping. as usual, at least once during the fasting month we'd go to a shopping mall and do a little bit of a 'qt' as that usually makes me happy. yes, indeed the littlest things makes me get excited and happy.

before watching resident evil, decided to check out the isetan supermarket, only to discover they had the most yummylicious moist chocolate cake! i kid you not. we tried and fell in love instantly. we got 3 boxes 1 for us, and 2 for parents and in-laws (with no intentions of getting more actually). but today, we're making another quick trip for another 9! or maybe 10 i don't know...i think that girl is going to be happy... i hope she gets commission, for being a good salesperson. she wasn't irritating at all! i like. i'm sure you know what i mean, some of these sales girl/guy/shim just gets under your skin, and makes you want to leave the shop INSTANTLY!

movie was a 'no brainer' show, but not for the faint of heart. i have nothing much to comment on the movie as it wasn't my cup of tea. and hani, i agree! you do have something in common with milla! *evil grin* haha.

i didn't buy any handbags or shoes as i have been having the itch for, instead i bought more clothes! sick aren't i? i should not be spending anymore money on clothes unless its for work or something... hmm... *dilemma* you think? heeehe.

had dins at my fav chinese restaurant 'spring garden', something light the famous "hot and sour soup" and their house special noodle. delish! satisfying. the waiter and waitress acknowledged us and said we haven't been there in a while... indeed, i have missed you guys too. one of the waitress spoke to hubs, and said "wahhh... sudah banyak kurus ah you! sekarang maintain ah? healthy lorrr" i looked at him and laughed. she was so cute.

right after we rushed to bangsar as we had promised earlier to meet up with some friends, at alexis bangsar... it was nice, we sat down, listened to each other, and yack-yack and yacked away... farah, azila, malik, bro, hubs and i! yes, some of them had ordered the moist cake too! that's why we're getting at least 9 of them today!

i think...

and its dangerous when i start doing this... (not because i'm absolutely brilliant or anything, is just that the list will be too long, and rather challenging to fulfill! :P)

its high time i go for some serious shoe shopping
i need a new handbag or handbags either one would do
i want a new collection of books
i need new working clothes
i want to enrol myself into a foreign language course, preferrably french
i should enter a professional cooking class, if and when i have the time
i want to get myself a new set of plates, and bowls
i want new cooking set
i need the dough mixer
i need a good microwave
i want to adopt a cat, asap!
i want to be a good mommy, when time/rezeki permits, insyallah
i want, need, should be a good wife, hope that i am
i want to be a good daughter, and sister
i want to be an extremely good friend, and a great listener
i want to work harder to achieve my goals in life
i want/should be more forgiving, now
i want/should seek for forgiveness from all, that i've sinned...
i should not past judgments too quickly, about anything, anyone, even towards myself
i want to chill in labodega, sip my coffee and chill with my happy people
i should stop now...
...now i have a headache, trying so hard to think to get everything else listed!

today i am the queen of animals

saturday i totally exploited my family, heeeehe! mom, sis and my kakak! we approximately baked 800 over cookies over 3 different types. yeah sounds a lot right? wrong, at the end of the day, i only take home over less than 100 cookies for each type.
where has it all gone to?
(scratching my head!) ah yess, mom will be taking a bulk of it since she entertains guests on raya day and the rest is distributed to my aunt, and my mother in-law. (aaaww, aren't i sweet?) haha, yes "i sendiri angkat my own bakul, since no one is going to do it for me". anyhoo, the feelings always great when someone shows the appreciation for your efforts, "hilang penat buat kuih..."

then since we were going to break our fast at the in-laws, i baked apple pie and sausage rolls, since it was almost like potluck. that was sorted. then when i got home, around 530p.m. and i've been up and about doing cookies since 930a.m. i just felt like 'crashing'. ergh, my body was hurting as though i had been beaten, like a stray dog. well, since i'm supposedly the 'super housewife' i toughen it out and took my shower and left the house after 20 minutes.

as usual after buka you will feel like a 'slug' and 'anaconda' everything else is going at a slo-mo (slow motion) movement. i felt like crawling into bed. haha. again, pushed myself and we made our way for badminton, til 10p.m. now you have no idea, how many times i actually tai-chi'd my way out of the games! :D
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later, hubs continued with futsal and i headed back to parents place, took a quick shower, and picked up my girl friend for another quickie - speed talking/gossiping and serious updating! it was fun, yes indeed, quality time. the conversations evolved, from silly issues, family, to friends, to work, marriage, then marriage again... more advices, and many many more.

before sending her back, picked another girl friend up, and pick hubs and la-la-la-la-la that was the cycle for the night which was fun to see my self "kabut".

got home and slept peacefully like a 'sugar glider' all comfy covered with the blanky, and all curled up (ok, exaggerating!)

fickle!

okay so i lied. i liked the template of the crayons, then i changed to the music template, but i still liked the old black dull/boring/mundane template. so yeah, i think i'm going to change it back again...

silly quotes to humor you!

"Careful with that light at the end of the tunnel, it might be another train coming."

Hard work pays off in the future, laziness pays off now.

Smile, and the world will smile with you. Laugh and they'll all think your on drugs.

Lifes Tough, get a helmet!

Constipated People Don't Give A crap.

GROW YOUR OWN DOPE --- PLANT A BLONDE.

Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away.

liking it

welcome to the new clean and simple look of me! instead of being dark hence the black background and red fonts before, i decided, this is the new look of eeshie's-dramatic-journey.

delectable

hunting for the designer for your wedding dress/gown/kebaya/kurung would be extremely challenging. thank god, i've gone passed all that. am just helping a dear friend out. set an appoinment with radzuan radziwill, a young known designer, you'd expect them to have "air", but there was none. we got acquinted quickly, he was witty, direct, honest, and sweet at the same time! so the meeting was a breeze, and organized. materials, ideas was thrown in and elaborated, next meeting was already set... that eases the whole process for her. happy she was, which brought a smile to my face.
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seeking for a good friends birthday present is also difficult, you'd have too many questions unanswered. too many doubts. the what if's...
-its ugly, and not her taste
-she already has it
-something she doesn't need
-doesn't like it
just go back to basics and recall, the most recent thing she's been talking about, yes work backwards, and you might just find the answer to it. as i did. never in a million years would i have picked out a ferrari "anything" but since she loves it, and it was a tasteful looking sports bag, which she needed we got it without any doubt! thank god, she needed and liked it :)
"the art of listening", works wonders!
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dins at delicious was fun, and sweet. hearts were racing to speak, future plans has been laid on the table, its just a matter of time... insyallah.
food were not wasted, drinks were all tasted. at the end of the night, our stomach was fully settled. it makes a whole lot of difference when you're accompanied by those you love and those who loves you... the appreciation of each other, is sweeter than anything else you could ask for.
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2 months has passed, and we made it a point to visit, amir & aliza, and their new bundle of joy! the princess in the family, hopefully you caught the hint that it was a girl, based on the 'italic and pink font!' or else please get your eyes checked!
"congratulations mom & dad on your beautiful little princess, Rania".
she'd be loved and cherished by her crazy aunties and uncles, that's a promise...

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"The main things which seem to me important on their own account, and not merely as means to other things, are knowledge, art, instinctive happiness, and relations of friendship or affection". Bertrand Russell (1872-1970)

stupok!

damn the internet! and damn the error on the auto save for the draft! i just finished blogging and as i pressed the publish post button! POOF it all disappeared. oh well, later then...

baker to driver

initially i was suppose to bake. as soon as i saw mom, which she was almost driven up the wall, i emphatized. so i offered, okay instead of baking today i'll help you out with work okay? and so i left all the ingredients, and started on sorting out the paperwork for her.

(okay, task done)

left the house to central, sorted some tickets/boardingpass and claims. off to tmc, since we wanted to get more ingredients *being extremely ambitious to bake other type of cookies, hopefully we can get at least 4 types of cookies done by this weekend, then i'll definitely tutup kedai. every weekend i smell of the dough. sweet, but i'd rather smell of perfumes, know what i mean?

back to tmc, grabbed our stuff and we were out from there after 45 minutes. queued up, waited at the cashier and an incident occured.

we had loads to pay and pack, so mom decided to pack the groceries herself, and dumped it onto the next counter since it wasn't opened. then a man appeared as soon as they opened the counter, so mom 'dengan terkial-kial' lifted those plastic bags, and the man started putting his items after the scanning machine, little did she know she was getting into a lot of trouble for passing a quick remark!

cashier: en. tolong jangan taruk ini barang after the scanner... (in a rather harsh tone)

man: AKU TAU LA!! kau ingat aku bodoh ke? tak nampak ke tadi ada plastic bag kat sini semua?

cashier: embarassed, and smiled

man: kau ni buat aku marah je, kenapa la kau nak buat statement yang membengangkan aku. dahlah aku ni puasa, ish bodoh betul la amoi ni! bangang, bodoh, bahlul! tengok, kan dah aku mengamuk kat sini!!
......

man, again: nasib baik kau ni perempuan!! kalau tak memang aku boleh bunuh kau! bangang sial punya perempuan.

me/mom: looked confused, and refused to say anything... i just wanted to pay and get the hell away from that "scene". gila scary.

man: eh amoi, lain kali cakap baik-baiklah dengan orang, kau ingat semua orang ni tak pandai ke? bodoh ke?

cashier: smiled, dying of embarrasment i guess.

me: tsk, tsk, tsk (in my heart, he seriously just better "buka puasa" all together) "saya tau lah abang ni lapar, but tak payah lah maki hamun orang macam tu..."

(don't worry, i had this conversation played in my head... i did not want to see the outcome of me passing a quick remark to this man... i do not want to be the next batch of minced meat in the supermarket)

mom: minta maaf banyak-banyak la cik, barang saya kat situ tadi...

man: tak, it's not your fault, salah dia ni bodoh sangat!

us: walked away in disbelief...

then mom laughed, asked her why... she said he was like the male version of her in certain situations (trust me mom, you're nothing like that!!)

anyway, right after we made our way back to p.j. to the baking shop, sorted out some stuff and dropped the rest back in ss1. then, off to hyatt in subang... to drop off some tickets.

then... made our way back to central again to collect the claims, and back to federal hill. wow! it was seriously tiring, but at least i got entertained while we went grocery shopping. i don't know how can one person, be so angry towards another to take it to that level. yes, i know i could be just as cruel, but i think i still have a little compassion for the other party, unless that person kurang ajar gila laah!

hmm... any of you witness such cruelty before? or been the "cruel party" for once? feel like sharing? do drop a line or two!

i have come to a conclusion, i have more patience on baking then driving, today i almost lost my patience and started cursing while fasting... tsk tsk tsk... i think at most in a day i should only drive for an hour, tops!

what a load of bull!

like every other day, from time to time as i'm cleaning the house i would switch on the tv and watch E! don't worry i can vouch that at least 8 out of 10 friends of mine be it girls or guys, they're pretty hooked onto these juicy gossips! just that the boys will deny it.

okay ya-da-ya-da-ya-da, it was mentioned in the Daily 10, that miss bootylicious beyonce knowles will be cancelling her concert in kl for the month of november! reason being, she was asked to dress appropriately covering from her chest/boobies/cleavage whatever you want to call it right up to her knees! which got the diva upset, and so she cancelled... but her replies to the press or paparazzi's - it's due to her tight schedule! but she's performing in jakarta instead, since there's less restrictions there.

what a load of bull... lahhhh!! seriously i was sooo looking forward to her concert in kl! hmmm... but then again another trip to jakarta is not that bad of an idea (evil grin!)

maybe it's not that bad then, another excuse to be out of the mundane kl. yeay.

now all i have to do is lobby the idea to hubs. wish me luck!

odd

on mondays we usually meet up during the futsal session, the girls will be busy talking, watching, gossiping, eating, drinking and the guys will be full of testosterones either they are way into the game, passionately or out to impress the girls or lack thereof, or gain acknowledgments from their peers either way these boys are out to exercise and have fun, i guess.

however, this particular night was weird... people around us kept on saying things that just didn't seem right, or maybe they said things at the wrong place and wrong time... or maybe it could just be me... yes, i reckon it's just me...

i got a little personal with one of the guys yesterday, as they asked how much did they have to pay for the futsal session, i said after calculating the number or players it would be RM12 perperson, now this is not even my responsibility to do so. i just hate the feeling of not being able to collect the full amount by the end of the night. so i sat, kept track of time for each game, and this dude came up to pay... (mind you, the amount is not small, and we usually have to top up!)
like i mentioned it was 12 bucks, he had the cheeks to look at me and said, "hey!! main satu game pun nak kena bayar dua belas ringgit ke??" i just replied, "i don't organize the rotations, i'm just collecting on behalf, it's set by them, i'm not in control..." nor i tell the guys how to play the game or what so ever!

(the nerve!)

hello? i know i have absolutely nothing to do with the game and all, and i can't even play futsal for nuts, but i really did not deserve that... well at least i think so la... you could have been a bit more civilized! and take it up with the guys, and see what they have to say about you after? :) chicken shit.

... it was odd...

byron just got back from melbourne and he was updating us with his colorful trip! and seriously it was rather colorful... ahhaha... i envy you my friend... but seriously, where the hell is our chocolates and candies or prezzies for that matter? (kan hani??)

well that wasn't the only thing that i observed that seemed pretty weird, wired either one would do... i find it hard to believe how one can actually go all out to prove to others that they are not what they seem... which is sad! come on... some of us are not blinded by your acts... the things you say and do, it contradicts each other... (confused look here, and yes punt is indeed very very much intended)

but i guess i could be wrong, i could be the judgmental one here... i could be... at least i have the courage to face the music... (la la laaa, da di dooo, du dooo duuuu!!)

even this particular blog is rather odd.

i think its about that time of the month now...

gone by quickly

wow, time passes by so quickly! with a blink of an eye... we have entered the 19th day of fasting... and Eid will only be 2 weekends away... i could still recall the fasting month a year ago! we were still staying at the taman tun house, which i was totally fond off! and this year we have moved the the apartment, but i guess sooner or later we'll be back in the taman tun neighborhood... accessible and extremely near to one utama... yes i will be entering the danger zone. somehow i think i'll manage... hehe...

anyway, we had a pleasant 'buka puasa' yesterday at a cafe in ss2 called green wood. few of us turned up, but it was still good enough, the food there came quickly, some of us had the local delicacies, some had the western, either one is good if you ask me, and the prices were pretty affordable...

we sat from buka to supper, yes indeed we did! hehehe... that's how long we sat still and endured each others company! but i like it, its not pretty often that we get everyone together... except for the fact that cikz wasn't around... woman just to let you know, this place has the BEST mash potatoes... "we had onions and bacon in it..."

we just sat down and blabbed everything and anything we wanted, some of us were complaining about work, some of us are complaining about the never ending boredom at home, some was talking about the fact that they had their mid-terms next week, but one thing we all had in common was our sleeping habit which has gone totally hay-wire. hopefully it'll be alright after the fasting month ey?

in the next 2 weeks everyone will be going back to their hometown, all out of kl... so, hubs and i we're not sure when exactly are we going to have a get-together or a open house at our place... since everyone will be missing the first few days of raya/Eid. hmmm... need to be discussed further...

i think we'll have the few last sessions over here *sob*sob* so sad... yes i've grown to love the apartment, and soon i'll have to part with it, but its okay i guess it doesn't matter where we move to, anywhere, we will always make it home to us... and as cozy as possible ;) that's a promise.

now the sucky bit is when we're actually shifting! the packing and unpacking, god damn it!! okay *woosa* i'm not going to think about it now till the time is right...

i just can't wait for raya! all the yummylicious food, mom's soto, rendang daging/ayam, kuah kacang with nasi impit (yes-i'm-so-going-to-belasah-the-food!) yes, even the nasi impit! screw it... i just want to reward myself this time round... hehe... yeah yeah i know we have at least 2 weeks more to go, but i can't help it! i'm just drooling over the food as of this moment... YUMMAY!