embarrassed

today i felt embarrassed to be apart of malaysia, after reading news that was bombarded in every news paper regarding the arson attacks!

i understand some might believe that they're doing it for the right reasons, lets not even touch the topic on 'doing it for religion' because lets just face it, we may not even be well versed religion wise, 'akidah' is not strong or concrete enough, even if it is... this is not what knowledge is used for.

i believe that 'whomever responsible for this' may not even have family members especially kids! because if they did, then they are extremely selfish! not thinking about their kids, and the repercussions or consequences the kids in that generation would have to face.

all these is done to prove what exactly? are they even able to sleep better at night because of their actions?

i wonder.

thank goodness i've got mika's single 'rain' on repeat, making me blog without profanity.

on a different note, i think he really is a genius!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sknDfB3pJB8

astray

this is new for me, blogging while munching away at this hour. i was suppose to give up on all these binging issues, but i can't help it... food and me is the epitome of bff.

although today was suppose to be the starting of my working day i had to put it off for the moment, actually i'm not even sure when i'll be able to get back to work. see my dilemma is that i do not want to send baby A to nursery but to be taken care of by her kakak; and here comes the big issue - the agent that was suppose to get her documents sorted out 2 months ago is stupid and a liar! i mean the promises he makes and the dates he sets are all just purely cock and bull stuff.

anyhoo long story short i think she's only arriving on thursday, so yeah lets hope so.

i've been dreading the fact that we've been eating outside for lunches and all, not that i think my food or cooking is any better, but it is nice to eat home cooked food once in a while... so early in the morning, for baby A i managed to whip up 'pancakes' for her. then for lunch made 'sambal ayam' using only 1 fresh red chilli and lots of onions, and 'mackarel with taucu' with a side dish of broccoli & carrots for us both... was worried if she might not like the taste of these dishes but thank goodness she's got the flair for food too! phew.

then i decided, okay i might as well make full use of the time i had in my hands... took her out to o.u. and checked out some outlets for some last minute shopping before the sale ends! found cute little sunnies for her from parkson, absolutely love it; and more clothes, what else?!?

note to self before entering the mall was, only to window shop and head to the supermarket. that was totally what i had in mind, but i went totally astray! eeeeek!?!? what is wrong with me? don't the word 'self control' mean anything to me anymore?

in my defence i bought all these for her... that should count for something right? i didn't splurge on myself...

yada, yada, yada - had baskins and fought with her over my share, then headed home. pretty pleasant day.

before dinner we planned to go the market to pick up some goodies, that didn't go as planned as well... damn it, i've been neglecting my priorities!

hoping for a better planned day tomorrow. g'nite.

paranoia, as cordial can be?

i feel that paranoia is the devils best friend; its no longer idle hands.

every time you sit not wanting to think about anything, your mind starts wondering and questioning, especially when you have ample of time on your side.

you wonder, why this and that. why did your friend questioned you the way they did earlier, on your absence. why didn't they return your call, or smses. why aren't they making any effort to see you even if its only for 20 minutes. (see where this is going?)

that is why i think it is best to just keep your gap shut and keep your self occupied; at least you wouldn't start being paranoid over the smallest darnest things.

on a different note, even though you're in an extremely uncomfortable situation being surrounded by people you hardly dig, vice versa it's best to be cordial... as cordial can be. if they have no qualms, you shouldn't too. don't over react, they might use it against you. so be cordial. yes cordial, as cordial can be.

signing off - listening to the soulful voice of adele 'hometown glory'

labels

you are aware that some of your friends might not be friends with your friends, but once they've been introduced and hit it off they might become friends, right?

see here's the thing, i have never been a fan of labelling friends. for instance, i've been hanging out with a group of friends, and a new acquaintance is being introduced to them peeps, and gets along like really well, that would be super awesome! and if i have had an instance of having a fall out, i do not expect you to pick my side and just be friends with me. get me? or is this all too confusing?

it's sad to say that no matter how good of a friend you think you are, things will not go your way all the time and people in general do "talk" or so that's what they'd like to call it... and it gets back to you.

in this case i have been labelled as the "garang one" to some people, even others that of an acquaintance to me... and it got back to me. *sigh* i do admit, i am vicious only if i need to. totally become cougarish like okay not the best of animals to pick (might derive some misunderstanding that i'm some middle age woman prying on young boys! totally not..) tigerish only to protect the best interest of people i love, even myself for that matter.

here's the thing, some people i know likes to take ownership of friends, and they do not like mixing their cup of tea, get me? so they start making excuses for themselves not to introduce or bring their friends into the 'group'. funny how these little life pleasures work for them.

i'm just wishing you the best of luck, hopefully in due time you get what you're looking for - that inner peace, i hope.

listening to: OST the holiday - three musketeers by hans zimmer (an extremely talented man!)

out with the old, in with the new

it feels like it has been a decade since i last had an entry; yes for 2009 at least. i would like to blame it all on the fact that i have been extremely occupied with work, but that would mean i'd be lying! or the fact that i've been constantly keeping my self busy by cooking/reading/cleaning, or entertaining my baby at all times... *yes i do these things but not excessively more like in moderation*

so 09' is gone, towards the end i think the only thing i've been thinking about is to 'detox everything from it', not that i'm complaining about the the year, some good - some bad - some had holy smokes for an effect but all in all, it came and we conquered it. *amin*

you know, i feel that i have been taking the short way out, instead of writing is what i love doing, i tweet. yes, bored of hearing bout twitter? or fb status updates... i know, i know... but yes i succumbed to the social pressure (smiles sheepishly); but i must justify, it is convenient. 2010 is filled with all sorts of status updates on their new years reso - i somehow feel that it is best to do the walk instead of the talk. it's all about the yip-yapping.

this is refreshing! i do miss writing, even i might not have anyone reading it... it just makes me feel happy.

yes it is the 2nd day into jan, but am already looking forward to the second week of february towards all the action that we've been dying to have and a well deserved one, after all the hard work put into 2009. so long, now.

watching: julie & julia. "you can never have enough butter"

first bday present

bought baby A, her first anklet! she loves it!

so happy.

then mom gave her additional bracelet & necklace, it's complete... til much later when we pierce her ears.

A beautiful note for all my beautiful ladies

Buat Para Wanita

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Buat sahabat-sahabat yang sudah berkahwin atau
bertunang serta yang tiada sebarang hubungan, harap
sampaikanlah artikel ini kpd para wanita...... .

1. Seorang wanita solehah adalah lebih baik daripada
70 orang wali.

2. Seorang wanita solehah adalah lebih baik daripada
70 lelaki soleh.

3. Seorang wanita yang jahat adalah lebih buruk
daripada 1,000 lelakiyang jahat.

4. 2 rakaat solat dari wanita yang hamil adalah lebih
baik daripada 80 rakaat solat wanita yang tidak hamil.

5. Wanita yang memberi minum susu kepada anaknya
daripada badannya (susubadan) akan dapat satu pahala
daripada tiap-tiap titik susu yangdiberikannya.

6. Wanita yang melayan dengan baik suami yang pulang
ke rumah di dalam keadaan letih akan mendapat pahala
jihad.

7. Wanita yang habiskan malamnya dengan tidur yang
tidak selesa kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit akan
mendapat pahala seperti membebaskan 20 orang hamba.

8. Wanita yang melihat suaminya dengan kasih sayang
dan suami yang melihat isterinya dengan kasih sayang
akan dipandang Allah dengan penuh rahmat.

9. Wanita yang menyebabkan suaminya keluar dan
berjuang ke jalan Allah dan kemudian menjaga adab
rumahtangganya akan masuk syurga 500 tahun lebih awal
daripada suaminya, akan menjadi ketua 70,000 maalaikat
dan bidadari dan wanita itu akan dimandikan di dalam
syurga, dan menunggu suaminya dengan menunggang kuda
yang dibuat daripada yakut.

10. Wanita yang tidak cukup tidur pada malam hari
kerana menjaga anak yang sakit akan diampunkan oleh
Allah akan seluruh dosanya dan bila dia hiburkan hati
anaknya Allah memberi 12 tahun pahala ibadat.

11. Wanita yang memerah susu binatang dengan
"bismillah" akan didoakan oleh binatang itu dengan doa
keberkatan.

12. Wanita yang menguli tepung gandum dengan
bismillah", Allah akan berkatkan rezekinya.

13. Wanita yang menyapu lantai dengan berzikir akan
mendapat pahala seperti meyapu lantai di baitullah.

14. Wanita yang menjaga solat, puasa dan taat pada
suami, Allah akan mengizinkannya untuk memasuki syurga
dari mana-mana pintu yang dia suka

15.. Wanita yang hamil akan dapat pahala berpuasa pada
siang hari.

16 Wanita yang hamil akan dapat pahala beribadat pada
malam hari.

17. Wanita yang bersalin akan mendapat pahala 70 tahun
solat dan puasa dan setiap kesakitan pada satu uratnya
Allah mengurniakan satu pahala haji.

18. Sekiranya wanita mati dalam masa 40 hari selepas
bersalin, dia akan dikira sebagai mati syahid.

19. Jika wanita melayan suami tanpa khianat akan
mendapat pahala 12 tahun solat..

20. Jika wanita menyusui anaknya sampai cukup tempoh
(2 1/2 tahun), maka maalaikat-maalaikat di langit akan
khabarkan berita bahawa syurga wajib baginya.

21. Jika wanita memberi susu badannya kepada anaknya
yang menangis, Allah akan memberi pahala satu tahun
solat dan puasa.

22. Jika wanita memicit suami tanpa disuruh akan
mendapat pahala 7tola emas dan jika wanita memicit
suami bila disuruh akan mendapat pahala tola perak.

23. Wanita yang meniggal dunia dengan keredhaan
suaminya akan memasuki syurga.

24. Jika suami mengajarkan isterinya satu masalah akan
mendapat pahala80 tahun ibadat.

Pandangan: Amatlah mudah bagi seorang wanita untuk
menjejak Syurga.

Namun begitu mengapa terlalu ramai yang masih hidup
dalam kejahilan?

Sang suami pula perlu ingat, tidak kamu jejaki syurga
sebelum keluarga kamu menjejak syurga. Jangan ingat
hendak kahwin empat jika yang satu belum terbela.Yang
belum kahwin tu ingat, kamu terdedah kepada
kemungkaran. Iman akan dicabar sehebat-hebatnya ketika
ini. Pilih lah Syurga dan bukannya Neraka.

Siapa tahu, hari ini kita tak sampai ke rumah sebab
dipertengahan jalan kita bertemu Izrail.

Siapa tahu, hari ini hari terakhir kita berjumpa
pasangan kita sebab dipertengahan jalan, dia berjumpa
Izrail. Bagaimana rasanya ketika berjumpa Izrail?
Untuk yang beriman, macam 700 pedang yang tajam
mencucuk kamu dalam semua arah. Yang tak beriman,
bayangkan pisau potong daging kat pasar tu yang
tumpul.

Pisau tu menetak kepala kita macam mana orang
memecahkan tempurung kelapa. Kepala kita di kopak dua,
dipisahkan dengan kasarnya, ketika kita masih hidup.
Lepas tu di kapak-kapak kan kepala kita macam
tembikai. Itu baru bab kepala. Belum masuk tangan,
kaki, badan,etc... .

Dipetik daripada Bayan Masturat Oleh Syed Ahmad Khan;
Januari 1992.

Hadis nabi mengenai wanita.

Doa perempuan lebih makbul daripada lelaki kerana
sifat penyayang yang lebih kuat daripada lelaki.
Ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah akan hal tersebut,
jawab baginda, "Ibu lebih penyayang daripada bapa dan
doa orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia".

Nilai Seorang wanita solehah

Dibawah ini adalah beberapa petikan hadis yang
menyatakan mengenai kelebihan wanita solehah, mudah -
mudahan dengan membaca dan menghayati hadis ini akan
memberi kekuatan kepada kita untuk mengamalkan Islam
dalam erti kata yang sebenarnya.
Insya - ALLAH.

"Empat jenis, siapa yang diberi akan keempat - empat
jenis ini beerti dia telah memperolehi sebaik - baik
dunia dan akhirat. Iaitu hati yang selalu bersyukur,
lidah yang sentiasa berzikir, jiwa yang selalu sabar
dengan cubaan dan isteri yang tidak melakukan dosa dan
menzalimi suaminya".
Ath-Thabrani.

"Tidak perlu lagi seorang mukmin setelah ianya
bertakwa kepada ALLAH akan sebaik - baik keperluan
baginya selain dari isteri yang solehah. Jika ia
menyuruh isteri mentaatinya. Dan jika dia melihat
kepada isterinya, isterinya menyukakan hatinya. Dan
jika dia menyumpah memarahi isterinya, isterinya tetap
juga berbuat baik kepada suaminya. Dan jika suaminya
tiada dirumah dia menyimpan rahsia dan harta
suaminya".
Ibnu-majah.

"Janganlah kamu mengahwini wanita kerana paras rupa
yang cantik, mungkin paras rupa itu membawa
kehancuran, jangan kamu kahwini wanita kerana hartanya
kerana berkemungkinan harta itu membawa kepada
kezaliman. Tetapi kahwinlah wanita kerana agamanya,
seorang wanita hamba yang hitam yang menghayati agama
sesungguhnya lebih baik"
Ibnu - Majah.

Thanks to Mia Farra for tagging me in this note on FB!