high time & all messed up

i think it's official, my bub feels that she needs her independence from me... 11 months and she decided she'd go full on formula, i no longer am required to breastfeed her. sigh.

as much as i am sad, i knew this day would come. but i thank god that with little supply that i had i still managed to pro-long it to 11 months ;)

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on a different note all together, i was going through some of the old blog i loved reading and i felt sick to my stomach as i was reading and going through this blog! the beautiful image i once had and respected its country and the ruler has gone down the drain. thanks to the son of Sheikh Zayed who was found guilty of torturing a man. so inhumane!

then i read another article linked from that blog site too - the dark side of dubai. about immigrants and their series of unfortunate events there. why do we have such cruelty in this world?

we are all only humans after all, we need love - we give love; i know i make it seem so easy... but it is not that difficult. why must it all end up with something so harsh filled with cruelty?

after reading these articles, i realized that we, malaysians do take it for granted on so many levels.

i understand that you can't teach old dogs new tricks; but you can always educate and make the changes on your own, least i think that's how we can start and progress.

aqiqah, tahlil and the whole works

okay so it has been a while since i last blogged. nothing much to catch up on. aside from work, outings, a few new goss, bub and all life is just same ol' same ol'.

however, last weekend took the cake.

we decided to do her jejak tanah on the 18th, as her descendants are from Sumatra and her Rawa lineage; but the whole idea and preparation got shot down. she has to wait til she turns 13 months old, apparently there's some signifance to that, shall abide.

the show must go on... we fulfilled our responsibility as to perform her aqiqah, which was "sempurna" as the malays would put it. alhamdulillah.

since the passing of my opah was last wednesday, we decided to coincide the whole kenduri for that too. so all her cucu gathered.

friends came and feasts with us the little we had to offer - soto ayam, hokkien mee, baked pasta, lamb and kuih bakar, along with the famous cupcakes + cookies from amy!

i'm just glad we were able to complete the kenduri with little hiccup.

can you imagine my baby bub is turning 1 in 49 days time?

how time flies. okay bai.

listening to: hellogoooooodbyeeeee - baby, it's fact! *on repeat* - bani you got me hooked!

work

first day being at the new space, liking it; but missing my bub like crazy! 

*hope it gets better!*

but if you're actually wondering about the workload, there's nothing much to be done at the mo. just getting everything sorted out with the job line-up; for now. tomorrow will be the beginning of a hectic working day.

now, i'm hungry.

over the weekend

saturday 28.02

a good friend niney invited my fam and i for a photo shoot session, but we'd have to be their "guinea pig" cause these photographers were some sort of newbies. i could not care-less, hehe i jumped at the opportunity when she invited us!

so, at 9 a.m. aira was ready, then hubs and i packed everything and made our way there at 945 a.m. to bangsar that is... the house looked pretty cool, they had set the whole mumbo jumbo before we arrived. there aira was introduced to little sweet maya faith who is 8 months old and isaac who is 7 months old!!

having 3 babies in one house, you can imagine the whole ruckus we had caused!

the main photographer told his little minions that taking pics of babies & toddlers is by far the most challenging tasks for them! and we brought 3!! heheh... i was having a blast though, hubs wasn't feeling too good but he stayed til we had our first family picture taken :) can't wait to see the final product (although i know i'll look like some orang minyak, due to my little dyne-dyne being extremely active behaving like a boy!)

we left by 1215 p.m. and headed to giant kita damansara, yes i'm becoming a bit more kiasu now cause i look for which hypermart is having promotions on them PAMPERS! we can save quite a bit out of my being kiasu and all. hehe. we had lunch, and i was pretty glad to find JCO there! finally, after donkey amount of time they have opened their shop here, that was my first time eating it in KL! loser huh? hehe... i'm just not that keen to line-up and pay, but hey, i guess the craze for them donuts is almost done. lucky me.

sunday 01.03

was looking forward to lunch today, so we headed to BV and met up with my in laws. today, i totally noticed my daughter is extremely 'sombong' seriously!! for that period of time that we were there she just refused to go with anyone of them... except for when my sister in law carried her and i had to entertain her by singing or something! it's tiring dowh!!

i guess she's in that phase now.

hope it gets better, seriously!

monday 02.03

hooray! today i baked sweet potato and mixed it with a little warm water to dilute it a little, then i fed her, without any rejections!! i was so happy, she loved her sweet potato... i guess babies love anything that is sweet.

the challenge will be obvious i guess when i start feeding her the green veggies - broccoli, peas, etc! can't wait.

she'll be 6 months old this friday, and we're taking her to penang for the weekend. she'll be having a lot of her very 'firsts'.

...more to come...

greatest gift

i know we don't celebrate christmas, but we just got the best gift or shall i say gifts for the eve:

1. we had our scrumptious dinner packed from ss2 (pan mee and kam heong chicken) - sorry if you were expecting - turkey & stuffing with mash potatoes :P
2. while eating we were watching our fav show - anthony bourdain
3. fed and played with the little one, sounds ordinary eh? aira was giggling and in her joyful mood for at least 5 minutes. that is seriously priceless!

the best day so far for the month of december....

almost...

...doesn't count right?

hubs called me winona/absent minded mommy...

think i was extremely occupied with the little bub - misbehaving while i took her out for lunch at ikea, i had walked earlier while waiting for a girl friend, so i decided, i'd like to buy something for the little one...

but during lunch, i was in for quite a ride with her!

okay to cut the story short, hubs was waiting for me at the entrance and i was totally excited to see him... and then i parked the stroller and he carried aira, he turned and asked me, "hey, what's that you bought for her?" i looked and said... "i didn't buy anything... i only had lunch!"

oh ohhh...

he pointed, "there! below the stroller... the red thing..." jeng jeng jeng! (my heart was racing...)

i panicked. took the stuff and walked to the guard, passed the item and said... "i'm so sorry, i totally forgot to pay for this. could you please hand it to the cashier or something..."

then, i slowly made my way to the car, full of embarassment!

shit. i'm not a kleptomaniac!

her first kaloo

i forgot to update my post on sunday, we managed to buy the cute kaloo rabbit for the chubster! well, its not love at first sight for her, as it was for me! haha...

i just think that every babies should be given a kaloo bear, its darn adorable. was struggling to buy it for her, wanted to order from amazon, calculated the medium sized bear would cost us approximately RM100 or so, and the large one is close to RM200; but i was just fortunate enough as i was walking around one utama the other day, i stumbled upon it!

totally made my day. you ought to check it out! click here for more info and pics on kaloo. will post up the pic of bunny and aira as soon as my bro remembers to bring the camera back! sigh.

mundane monday

the little one is feverish today. hope we can kick it before it gets worse! *hope, hope and hope*


quick shout out to a dear friend, nurul! "happy birthday darling... many happy returns! may today be filled with all the joy and happiness one truly deserves... love you"

it's boring monday again, back to square one - more complaints about work. work, work and work! i can't wait for the long hols... seriously.

planning for a trip next year with the little one, when she's about 8 months old! either brisbane or london, or which ever we can afford first. haha. i guess that's all for now.

oh oh oh wait, am loving every scene from the latest gossip girl episode, just so intense. gave me goose bumps. anyone who has songs from this particulare epi, please hollar! thanks.

listening to: satisfaction by john legend - i love his dreamy voice!

the jist

been meaning to blog, i think i have about 4 saved drafts! but i was just lazy.

anyway, just a brief update on the latest haps.

my little chubster just turned 3 months old on monday, same day as eid al-adha. so of course it was more meaningful for us. we made our way to my parents, had brunch which was abso-scrumptious! then we headed to my in-laws. yes, we're fair like that... that's why i have an undying love for my hubby.

tired, but satisfied at the end of the day.

***

the whole week i've been stressing my self out, (my cold sore was starting to act up! thank goodness, i managed to overcome the whole thing) remember the wedding that we got invited to? yeah, leaving the little one at home with the maid is fine, but i still have my doubts and observations on her! so i asked my parents to come over and monitor the both of them.

so, fri eve... as i was getting ready, the little one seemed suspicious... i asked my mom to carry her and she screamed her head off! hahaa... my maid had to calm her down... it didn't really work, i had to carry to pacify her. yeah, imagine this was going to be my second outing away from her for more than an hour! imagine that!

skipping the whole mumbo-jumbo, mom just told us to leave and enjoy our eve at the wedding.

finally arrived at sime darby convention center, being out without the little one feels weird for me. yes, call me crazy or whatever you want la... i just felt odd.

i don't know if its normal or not, but i was pretty excited about dressing up... you see i've been having doubts and all, coz since i've been preggers, you know there is such thing as excess fats being developed, and after birth, its not that easy to lose it all! hahaha.. so yeah, i was dying to find out if i was still able to fit in my corset! it went well though. hooray.

quick note about the bride, a friend that i've known since we were 10! wow, can you imagine that? crazy eh? but she's still the same person i've known all these years :)

"congratulations tunku putri nur asma & asraf!"

you had an extremely elegant reception, we're sorry we couldn't stay til the end... hope we'll see you next sunday!

came home and it was such an overwhelming feeling for me, the 2 hours away from the little one made me teary when i got home, saw her sleeping, thought she was going to continue but somehow she knew i was back and woke up! *the look on her face, how it lit up was just priceless... i was speechless*

such a great feeling being a mommy, you ought to try it sometime, hihi... ;)

listening to: no other love - john legend f. estelle!

When you’re surrounded by your loved ones, all your problems just seem to fade away, least for me. We organized a lunch date with our lovelies at spring garden to celebrate amir and malik’s birthday, yesterday. It was the usual group, our best travelling buds. It’s effortless.

Bought their strawberry fruit birthday cake from sun Moulin, a bakery in isetan, must admit the name of the shop is kinda sucky, but the cake was extremely light and refreshing compared to your average chocolate cake! Lunch was as usual, delicious as ever. My favorite restaurant had a major make over, but the food still tasted the same, just as good! As we arrived, the little bub was still wide awake, so I had to carry her in my arms and hummed for 15 minutes and sent her straight to la-la-land. It totally worked; she slept for a good 1 and a half hour! Letting her parents enjoy some quality time with their friends.

We managed to do a little shopping, bought some make up stuff, which I have been delaying! Been using those old almost dried up mascara, you know how it’s like, since the little one has been in my life, I have totally given up on my social life to be with her, but I can’t be looking ugly all the time. So I decided I should at least look pleasant la, for our little outings! Hehe…

We made a pit stop at the Gardens; hubs had to snap a couple of photos of the M&S concourse promotion for Christmas. For crying out loud, miss predator! (Nickname of the client) It’s a freaking weekend, and we’re having our usual family outing… can you please in god’s name just get there yourself and snap the photo on your own? I know it’s difficult for you to understand that we have a family, cause yours seems non-existent! Or maybe you just like these boys company? Which is what?

I think I’m right, my bro just confirmed it with me… when miss predator called, she suggested to my bro she wanted to walk around the Gardens with hubs! Haha… okay woman, good luck on getting him to agree. ;)

Got home, we were figuring out on how to use the little bubs carrier, I guess she looked at her father and I and thought we looked silly, so she decided to let us hear her FIRST GIGGLE! And she did it 3 times, but after hearing us laughing so loudly, she decided to stop. Apalah mommy ni excited for no reason?!

Started the day pretty early, it was such a pleasant one, till my maid came up to me and asked for my permission to go out for 2 hours. I looked at her and asked for what reason? She said to buy baju melayu, hmm… okay when you’re using that sort of an excuse for raya, it’s a bit difficult for me to deny it right? Benefit of the doubt!

*woosa, shereen, woosa*

I said ok, and ignored. Then I went downstairs, and told her reason why I said you could, is because tomorrow is raya. For any other month, or any other reason, you can forget about it! She looked innocently, and nodded. To be honest, I have trust issues with maids now, after hearing my girl friends side of the story! Her maid, who’s been taking care of her toddler at her mother in-laws place, apparently has been sneaking out of the house to go for her raunchy-sex-romp outings! THE NERVE RIGHT? She got herself pregnant, and got it aborted; mind you she wears tudung and is married? (not that I’m trying to be judgmental, bout her appearance and all, but have you got no shame and respect over yourself?) FUCKER! I was mad when I heard about this; the toddler is such a dear baby to us all… scares the living day light out of me.
Sometimes, you need not to ask yourself, why these maids actually get aggressively abused by their employers!

It’s wrong to be cruel, and worse when you’re nicer, with them.

Totally thinking twice about leaving the little bub with mine, I have another wedding to attend to this Friday! Argh! Makes me want to bail out last minute, but that’s pretty mean. I think I would just get my parents to come over and keep an eye on her for a couple of hours.

But what happens when we move out to a new office space? ARGH!

*woosa, shereen, woosa*

I better stop thinking, and writing. Its driving me mad mad mad!

listening to: take it slow by estrella (on repeat like a 1000 times)

today

i think every couple who is planning to get married, should have a wedding registry! i know its not in our culture, but it makes it so much more convenient, and i think our generation is able to accept it, no?

it sure beats the hours you spend, walking around the shopping mall trying to figure out what in whole wide world would be that 'special gift' for your friends! dang, and what if you think its special and to them its just an ordinary thing?

like the last wedding we attended we asked the bride and groom directly, what they'd actually preferred, gifts or cash? up front they said they preferred cash. easy peasy.

yeap, its that time of the month again, when your schedule is filled with wedding bells! so this weekend, i will be busy walking around the shopping mall, figuring out what to buy. blegh.

seriously, its nice to go get your registry up! i did mine in metrojaya, it was so so fun, all you gotta do is just point out the items you want, and the personal shopper would jot it down in your list.

***

yesterday we brought aira out, i'm so liking the christmas deco at all the malls, filled with beautiful fairy lights, glitters, colorful decos and all... haa... she likes it too!

*oh, just a heads up, to the food lovers! there's a tiny shop in OU (called Molten LAVA - near cold storage), that sells CHURROS, and yes they're delicious and pretty cheap - 4 sticks of cinnamon sugar, is only RM4++ and believe me, you... its scrumptious!*

we'll be attending a post-thanksgiving party this sunday, i think bringing a cheese platter would suffice! i wouldn't know what else to bring... plus i don't have a lot of free time to cook now, let alone bake.

eid adha is on monday, so looking forward to eating my moms food, last raya i was still in confinement, can you imagine i was totally tortured! everyone was enjoying the raya food, while i was drooling, looking at others enjoying it... its payback time! i'm so gonna SPLURGE! slurp, slurp, slurp. chup, i can't slurp the rendang, but i'm hoping i could at least eat the lontong and soto!

aira will be turning 3 months old then, how time flies huh? before you even know it, my daughter will be able to sit down and enjoy her meal with us... i so can't wait for that!!

thank god, today is a better day for me... hoping for a lovely weekend too.

listening to: today by stickboy (ost - gossip girl)

we thought wrong

my little bub totally proved us all wrong!

she was extremely well behaved when i took her for the wedding reception, yes indeed people! I TOOK HER TO THE WEDDING RECEPTION! you read it right! i know i'm not suppose to bring a BABY! but i couldn't help it, my silly of a maid took off for some cuti or better put raunchy get-away-weekend! and and me moms in penang, can't leave her else where so i decided, take her la! hehe... by the time we got to the hall, she was still wide awake but had her stomach filled. then i totally had to rely on the magical binky! carried her for at least 10 minutes and it sent her to la-la-land, only having to wake up an hour and a half after, and after putting the binky again she slept for another 45 minutes or so!

woo hoo, mission accomplished!

but she missed the FC blonde's performance though... she didn't get to see her daddy and his futsal team mates sang their heart out looking like some teenage boys, dedicating the song 'kau ilhamku' to hafiz and aishah!

the wedding reception too was sweet and elegant! theme was black and white! it was purrrrrrdy!
then met a whole whole lot of me old friends, the food was good, the performances was entertaining, love the wedding favor, and we totally enjoyed each others company.

i didn't get to snap any photos of the wedding and the performance, gotta get my hands on those with the cam yesterday! hmmphh!! anyhoo, shouldn't matter much if memory is good, can always depend on it.

have a good day!

i believe congratulations should be in place...

i believe i should start my blog with congratulating my friends!

dahl & loque; congratulations on your first step, to eternal happiness that is well deserved by the both of you! (making a LDR work is obviously challenging, but you guys have given hope to those who has lost all hope in that) KUDOS!

a personal note to dahl, "darling i'm just a phone call away, if you need any help at all with wedding prep or to talk to vent out errr whatever else no specific reason needed pun is fine... i got your back ;)" ... i is love you!

hafiz & aishah; congratulations on your akad nikah last night, may your marriage be filled with happiness and your love flourished more and more each day! i must say the wedding favor is absolutely gorgeous!

on a shorter note: we took aira out on friday night to the curve for dins, met up with some friends - rini & rizal, liana & zadey and selly! it felt like it was planned, a reunion... its been a while since we last saw them and hung out! it was cute seeing the 2 preggy ladies up and about! rini is due in feb, while liana is due in april, i so can't wait... aira will have 2 new friends... wee!

then on saturday: my parents came over for breakfast, mom usually get excited in the mornings cause she's able to come over and bathe aira. then at 11 we made our way back to their place, had lunch with my uncle and auntie, who came all the way from rembau to see aira for an hour and a half hour only!

back home, got ready and headed to masjid wilayah for the solemnization ceremony. short, sweet and elegant!

another long day ahead of us today! sigh.

progress report

yesterday we learned few new things from aira, since she just turned 2 months and 3 weeks old, she's able to 'mengereng' all on her own... okay for those who do not understand that word! shame on you! its when an infant lay down on her side without any assistance!

she was not only trying her very best to do that, but today she's been extremely talkative! it was hilarious, we had a good conversation for at least 10 minutes! then i guess she got bored talking to me, because she knew i just pretended i understood her. my maid was having a ball of a time laughing at the both of us.

today she's finally giving in bit by bit, in the morning she let the maid bathe her, then in the eve wipe her before changing her to her jammies, then after feed her milk! good progress huh? alhamdullilah, i hope it'll get better!! as i have been invited to 3 weddings (hafiz/nov, putri/dec, & ayin/dec) and i don't know how in the world am i going for these occassions if the little one does not detach her self from me!

i'm making sure, slowly but surely...

we're suppose to go for our first family trip this saturday to malacca, but we decided to cancel it as hubs might be busy with work, to just pack up our stuff and go? hmm... tempting but can't. so we discussed and thought maybe it'll be good if we stayed in kl, somewhere where we can take aira, then i thought why waste money! plus i don't want her to miss her music class on saturday!

wow, the predicament. tee-hee.

i do have photos of her on my phone doing all these new tricks - the most adorable is her discovering things she could do with her tounge! she likes sticking it out now, simply irresistable. if only i know how to upload it from my phone. well, til then we'll just have to wait til i could snap it with my cam. boo!

last but not least, i totally miss my lovelies! you know who you are, its been a while... i think its about that time that we meet up at the curve for coffee or dins? what say you? missing you guys so so much!

activities

thurs 20.11.08

decided to have dins @ delicious with hubs and we've been wanting to buy storybooks to read to her before her bedtime. as we arrived at the restaurant, aira was wide awake and i was worried she might be bored and just decides to scream on top of her lungs, *for fun* but after ordering and all, we observed and she seemed pretty fine. hubs decided to take this opportunity to carry and distract her with by showing her the lights! yes, ladies and gents! she is easily fascinated with lights and fans! cheap huh?

cool eh?

we managed to enjoy our dins without gobbling the food down our throats. according to this book that i'm reading, 'what to expect in the first year' everything you eat now becomes fast food, even if its steak, all new parents would have mastered just shoving everything down their throat! then we headed to parkson, and hubs made his way to mph. he bought the usual classics: little red riding hood, the little pigs and goldilocks & the three bears!

then i got a book by gina ford, contented babies & toddlers! apparently, if you'd like to train your little ones to sleep from 7p.m. - 7a.m. this would be the best for you to follow! it's proven, my girl friend has trained both of her daughters since a day old. impressive.

got home, and prepped the little one, hubs managed to read to her and finally fed her! my-oh-my the excitement in his face was totally priceless! i was so happy. we all slept like a baby right after :)

fri 21.11.08

as i was about to put the little one to sleep, hubs stormed into the room and told us about the great news! remember i said we were waiting for the great news regarding our anchor client? YEAY, indeed its been fulfilled! that means we'd have to shift office to hire a couple of new artists! such a great news for us early in the morning.

did a little work here and there and then called it a day! hihi, yes my bosses would be thrilled to know i did that, but i couldn't help it. teehee.

sat 22.11.08

woke up early today, i was excited because we were bringing aira for her first music class! but she was still asleep, then i got a message from my mom saying that they were going to drop by to see aira for a bit. as they walked in they saw aira smiling and laughing to barney's song 'i love you'... hihi, it was so cute.

mom wanted to bathe her, so she quickly took out her watch and rings and everything else! that was even cuter. after she was done, she carried aira for less than a minute til aira screamed! expressing her frustrations!

haha, mom was arguing with her, "hey, i just showered you and cleaned your pampers and all, by the time i'm done, i'm not even allowed to hold you? you just want to go straight to your mommy? why, aira?" .... "okay you go... go now to your mother!"

i could not believe my ears, my daughter and my mother arguing! haha...

then as i was feeding her, my dad was talking to me... even then she expressed that she wasn't happy. she grumbled.

by the time we got to the class she was asleep, had only been asleep for the last 15 minutes or so... we started the class, and we were introduced to the bunny called 'toffee'! furry and cute.

the instructor was trying to intoduce these things to see if any of the children had any fear of furry things! it's called "doraphobia" the class was all about singing, listening, hand and eye co-ordination, playing instruments, learning to sign and more. it was even educational for me!

the instructor knows each names of the little ones, and manages to identify their likes and dislikes, and you can even seek for advice from her. how to keep the little one busy or how to train them to sign, or sing, or gain their attention.

totally enjoyed our 45 minutes class! another great way for parents to bond and spend quality time with thier little ones! instead of bringing them to the mall and call it quality time.

for those interested to know more bout the class, click here. it's worth a try!

little prodigy

visited my girl friend eita and her new born yesterday, aww her little tot is really tiny! she only weights 2.9kgs as compared to aira who is now 5.3-5.4kgs! she is such a cutie pie, none of her new born clothes even fit her! she has to use the pre-mature baby clothes...
anyhoo, her mommy had already lost 14kgs!

hmm... where did i go wrong?

think my appetite was just too good for me then, i only lost 7kgs! in my first month. sheeeeet.

am glad i finally get to see them, thanks to auntie liana for making time to pick me and my little prodigy! as soon as i got home, an old friend fiza came to visit aira... its always nice to see her, all chirpy and dandy... she's great with kids or shall i say babies as she took good care of her newphews and nieces! so i would assume the little one would be comfortable with her.

nope, think again! fat chance mommy!

this time round, aira did not just cry. she showed her temper and screamed for her dear life as though auntie fiza was out to harm her. haha... she felt so bad due to the whole 'mumbo-jumbo'! she also witnessed the little drama aira pulled when i was trying to bottle feed her... so she gave me some suggestions and what not.

there's always a story to tell when it comes to aira huh? according to auntie fiza, aira's too smart for her age. hah!

after she left she sent me a message, regarding the teat and the bottle and etc... the message came like this:

okay i just checked with my sis NUK doesn't fit avent bottle (nasib baik i
tanya!) they have their own bottles, and mothercare punya bottle pun can use NUK
punya puting, but at the moment she looks fine using it, i think? you
can still try and see if she likes it. neways tell the little prodigy,
tunggulah! i will charm her with everything until she heroworship me, u
wait!!

i thought that was just so darn adorable! it totally made my day. anyone seen madagascar 2? do share your reviews, thanks!

hope

eeek! aira was behaving like an adult, refusing to sleep! she tidur-tidur ayam only today.

still no progress on her letting others carry her, maid managed to carry and sing to her for a good 15 minutes and then it was all shot down! then she made her own music, cried and cried and cried. boo.

not feeling flattered though, i wish she would be an easy one to get along with everyone and be the sweet baby that she is!

*hoping that it's just a phase* crossing my fingers!

blardy hell!

i'm so damn fucken pissed off!

you know la, issues with the maid! see how i've changed my tone and choice of word? from helper - maid.

at 430 a.m. as i was feeding aira, hubs woke up *due to stiff neck* and told me when i was asleep, the maid had called him at 1130 to ask him to open the front door! he was like WTF? okay opened it and questioned her...

how come you were out of the house at this hour?

she looked up with her pale face, i... i... i... was out with a friend we went to centre point. (wow, the nerve!) main gila ok!

kept on bombarding her with questions, she stood there with her sulky face, according to hubs. he then ignored and stormed off.

this morning as i asked her to get aira's hot water all ready, i prepped aira so i could bathe her instead, my maid ask do i do it? or you're doing it? i looked and said, I'LL DO IT! she was about to leave the room, thinking she could get away with murder... i said stop, i want to talk to you.

i did not raise my voice, but made sure i was stern, but in my mind i was actually performing the 'stone-cold-stunner' move on her, bloody hell. i made it VERY clear, all i asked was that, you came here to carik duit halal so you could send to your son, and you're doing this... tsk tsk tsk... and then i said, if you're not interested to work, there's an easy way out, you just have to let me know! she was almost in tears, *don't show me your crocodile tears laaa!* told her the damage has been done... you really betrayed me.

see people, its no point treating the maids nicely in the end they screw you over! i never denied her wants to go on her monthly leave despite me having an infant, i let her be... and there's no gratitude what so ever.

anyway, enough about her. i'm glad aira's colic is slowly being treated by consuming the pro-biotic! seriously love the doctor. he knows his shit.

serves me right

my lil girl refuses anyone who tries to carry her. a new trick she picked up. *just wondering how can a 2 month old even know this? *scratching my head!

been letting the helper play and bathe her, so that they get acquainted but after all that, she still screams and just simply rejects!

i'm in deep do-do! i guess it serves me right huh? (trynna be over protective summore, it's nicely biting me in the ass)

looking for ways to rectify this problem... help! as there are events that i won't be able to drag her with.

praying to god its just a phase.

a little somethin' somethin'

forgive me for my absence!

these past few weeks has been madness, for me. been dealing with this horrible thing called 'colic' that has been attacking the little one. poor girl.

explanation for this? well there's not much, her doc did ask me if i've been eating peanuts, any sort for that matter - it could, as in could be the cause... angin la katakan! oh well, no more nuts. not life threatening. oh yeah, they did say 3rd times a charm right? i so believe that, this new pediatrician is heaven sent! dr. altaf! i so so love. god bless him.

aside from colic, aira's already 5.2 kgs in her second month and she is 63 cm tall. well lets just say that when i carry her, placing her head on my shoulder her feet would be at my belly. okay either she's tall or her mommy is just plain short.

on another note;

on the 10th of nov, hubs and i have officially been together for 10 years, yes patting my self on the back, well done! "happy anniversary" been married for 3 years, with the best anniversary gift ever... nadyne aira. alhamdulillah.

i've made progress, i let my helper carry aira yesterday, and i think that is such and achievement for me. you see, i have been feeling a little protective, okay little is an understatement! my mom thinks i'm extremely possesive, which i totally can't help it :( i have been handling aira since day one, my helper only assists by bringing stuff for us, and that's about it. changing of the nappy, bathing, playing, cleaning, you name it its all done by me... dang!

and i'm starting work soon! jeng jeng jeng... thank goodness we work at home or else i would just die.

crazy huh? okay no need to answer me, i know...

i will do my very best to slowly let go, and let others in... its just that i have to really trust you to let you hold and carry her! yes crazy again huh? call me whatever you like, whatever tickles your fancy! :)

a good friend would be coming down from dubai - bella, i can't wait to see her, it has been almost 2 years!! we will be reunited. hooray. but its not the same as being there with her, at least then we'll be able to spend some time with my uncle, whom i've been missing dearly.

i've been thinking so much about going to london, i just want to be there with hubs and aira. it makes me happy thinking about being there, if only...
but i am going to work extremely hard to make it happen, for winter next year. insyallah.

okay that's all folks!