Tuesday, September 30, 2008

time flies

as of yesterday nadyne aira is officially 3 weeks old!

wow, time flies. seriously. i still can't get over the fact that i actually gave birth! hah.

this years preparation for raya is non-existent. as i am still in confinement. boo hoo! i wonder if i could curi-curi and eat all those yummy rendang, hopefully its not spicy, or else it would be such a waste.

can't go to my favorite flower shop at central market/petaling street to beautify the house with fresh flowers this year, but i might just might do it for our open house. still haven't decided on the date yet.

okay i'm sleepy, going to nap now. ahh.. the beauty of being on maternity leave!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

no words needed...




last two days

friday night.

told my parents i was leaving back for home tomorrow after the doctors appointment. my mom left for penang after buka, bout 9 p.m. she was devastated, and so were we. she left crying, because she was going to miss the little one. right after she left, i felt so selfish for wanting to leave before my confinement is due... i cried because i felt sad leaving, our house would be quiet-er than my parents but its not home.

saturday.

finally after going to the docs, we found out that aira's officially 4kgs as of today. my my has she grown compared to the last check up a week ago, by half a kg! yeap all those screams at night demanding for milk did pay off!

got home everything was the same except for my cat! she is the preggers! haha... one after the other, oh well... i'm happy.

hubs fixed the changing table and the cotbed and aira was comfortably placed at home... am glad we stayed at my parents' everything was taken care of, we are really grateful and thankful that it was extremely pleasant. wouldn't be able to thank them for the things that they've done to accomodate us there. love you guys to bits!

since we're already at home, aira decided to test her vocal skills, she screamed and screamed to see how loud or louder she could go! hehe... yes last night was one of those, am hoping for a better night today! wish me luck.



*this is by far the best feeling everrrrr!*

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

been good

22.09

its been two weeks since i've been in my confinement. the outcome is suppose to be good cause you've been taking good care of your body after labor. but for the last 2 weeks, i haven't had any COLD WATER, my goodness... i feel like everyone is just slowly tormenting me, drinking those good juices for buka! geram k! i was just so tempted. damn it!

but i've been good, i abide every single thing mom asks me to eat, or do. but she's been pretty cool about it, i even had 'jemput-jemput udang' by accident the other day, which i'm not suppose to (no seafood all together), cause its suppose to be extremely itchy for the scar. thank goodness i did not experience any discomfort. the confinement food usually consists of black pepper and ginger for the heat they provide for the human body. i'm seriously sick of the taste already. bluek!

i'm going through the bazaar magazine, and boy-oh-boy, how i wish i could just point out my favorite items and 'poof' it magically appears in front of me. since we paid for the hospital bill and all, i will have to lay low and restrain my self from shopping. period.

not that i'm complaining, we did get good service, but boohoo for me! now i got to start saving for hubs' birthday present since its about a month from now... i'll be scratching my head again trying to figure out what to get for him. got him a watch last year, was thinking of getting him a full suit from dutti which he adores. if they still have it, that is. hehe... think it was last seasons collection or something, oh well.. gotta start cracking my head then!

my little grrl is grunting, i should go check on her! ok she decided to just sleep through what ever that was making her feel uncomfortable :) phew!

potluck

19.09

"happy birthday abang/uncle nash!"

Okay since I’m in confinement I’d like to think that my brother was nice enough to want to celebrate his birthday with a couple of his close friends at home, during buka – potluck. *yes, I usually like to think that, ‘I ni special la sikit!’ teehee. I think I’m entitled to, I’m his sister.

Anyway, most of our friends arrived just before buka, some of them brought cupcakes, chicken rice, murtabak and etc. it was a pleasant eve spent at home… I was glad, at least I had some social life outside my room! Haha. Been rather cooped up at home, a bit the membosankan ok!

You try it and tell me about it.

Even Aira was enjoying herself, she wanted to participate as Ranya was present as well. So they were talking in their own language, which was gibberish to all of us, but it was extremely adorable. When one screams, the other one will join. You know the saying, can’t beat em’ join em’!

But because of the long night she slept pretty well, throughout the whole night til 530 a.m. we managed to catch some sleep then, which we were very pleased with.

an emotional turmoil

18.09

out of all the days i've been going through my confinement, today is the day that i actually felt emotional. not that i'm not thankful to my wonderful parents! they've been extremely helpful and nice, i'm just homesick. like really homesick.

i even told my masseuse, think she must have mentioned something to mom about me being in this condition. i even cried, or shall i say teared to hubs saying that i would be really nice if i could go through my confinement back at home. however, mom is just worried that my maid won't be able to handle the whole workload, and i first time mother would not be able to get all the help that i need.

i understand her point in this matter, but she's been really supportive either way. am so thankful for that.

my emotional rollercoaster ride was also getting out of hand when i was put in a middle of a conversation today and suddenly became a bit paranoid and over protective over my baby and shed a tear! wow, kenapalah saya ke-emo-an tak terhingga ni? can't be, because i miss my home too much now, can it? a bit the dramatic today, maybe i'm just a little tired? or i was feeling a little sick. could be all these mixed emotions blended together.

i needed to snap out of it. seriously.

thank goodness i did. after a couple of hours at least.

exactly a week!

15.09

exactly a week ago, i delivered baby aira!

wow time passes by so fast eh?

before you know it, it'll be a month up and i'm ready to go home... 'can't wait!'
actually i'm leaving back for home this coming weekend to continue my confinement there... i am missing my bed like crazy!

fortunate

14.09

baby aira received her first gold necklace!

moms' friend - thinks girls should always wear gold.

how nice!

long freakin' day!

13.09

today seemed like there was more than 24 hours in a day!

goodness me, i had a lot of visitors today, not that i don't appreciate it... i think i was too exhausted to handle it. from 1 p.m til 5 p.m had people coming in and out, and here i'm feeling extremely uncomfortable to inform them that i wanted to feed the baby and all.
blergh.

my cousin came over and brought her two extremely active boys. i thought my nephews were just ordinary kids, you know those who actually likes to run around and thats it. however, to my surprise these boys were pretty different! they kept on jumping on the bed while i was holding my little girl in my arms, i was so afraid that they might hit her, accidently. i was furious.

my cousin on the other hand acted like nothing was happening. that pissed me off even further. but i did not say anything because i did not want to offend them nor my dad. mom was out when all these happened. when she got back of course i complained to her.

she too was furious and angry, but she didn't stop there... she told my dad about it. thank goodness dad wasn't upset or offended.

oh well... nothing much i can do about it. thank god they left after 45 mins or so... but honestly it felt like they were in the room for more than 5 hours! yes yes, i know berdosa that i'm writing or saying all this, you would too, had it been your child in that situation.

neways, hubs' futsal team got offered to play semi-pro! i was happy for him, but sad at the same time, if they do take this opportunity, they'd be playing futsal from oct-feb every weekend to different states. hmm... that means he'll be away from the both of us. i guess we have to sacrifice a little in order to fulfill bits and pieces of our dreams huh?

many of her firsts...

today baby aira had her first zakat paid by her tok wan. we were surprised as we thought it should be done by her daddy, however my dad said it could be done, if di wakilkan or something like that.

another milestone, her cord dropped after the fourth day she was born. according to many, this shows that the baby will not be a difficult one. well according to orang-orang tua la. i wouldn't know, but i'm hoping that its true :)

my girl friend came over today bearing an extremely good news! she's pregnant. woopeee!! aira's got another friend.

feeling much better

11.09


you know, eh wait i don't think you do... after labor and all the effort that you've put into pushing and all, you're suppose to get some good ol' rest and the confinement lady is suppose to help you through that (not forgetting them medicines from the hospital yeah, those pain killers are goooooood!)

basically before my confinement lady started massaging me, i told her to go extremely gentle on me as i think i was still terrified of the pain i had to endure, and i didn't want to go through another! she was nice enough, she explained every each step to me.

firstly, i will have to soak my feet in this fowl smelling 'kunyit' + 'serai' + 'halia' water... to take out the 'angin' supposedly... then she will slowly massage my feet til the water gets cold, then move onto the massage, she will put this extremely 'hot stone' or for us better known as 'tunku' on my stomach to release the angin and also break the blood clot from the womb or so as what she explained, i could be wrong. then as i am not into all these herbal medicine or jamu, mom suggested that we use lotion and bath salts! smells yums ok? such a treat after 9 months of not being able to massage my back! haha...

the wound is slowly healing, like really slowly...

baby aira received her first angpow today from auntie jo! it was such a nice surprise from her, seriously... thanks jo :)

ok that's all for today...

a quiet day...

had a couple of friends over in the morning til lunch time. just chit chatted for a while and then i had my rest.

today we're exploring new things, instead of just giving her the formula for milk, poor baby aira, sometimes when you give them formula it gives babies bad tummy ache. however, much to my effort to b.f her, it was just not up to par yet! it wasn't producing enough just yet. blergh. pretty disappointing.

the next day...

09.09.08
woke up was extremely enthusiastic to see her! managed to spend less than 10 minutes with her yesterday at the nursery, am hoping that i would get good news from the doc that i could take her back with me today. and yes, after delivering in the eve, doc said i could leave the hosp after lunch time. Amazing; but he wasn’t too sure about my precious one. He’d have to check with the other doctor. Great! I had to wait longer. But within an hour or so, they told me that she was fit to be taken home with us. Such joyous news it was for the both of us.

i was already getting depressed staying at the hosp, luckily some friends managed to find the time to visit me at the hosp to keep me entertained. shakhira, shanaz and azad... so at least we felt a little bit occupied with familiar people. I’m sure you know, hospitals can get pretty depressing. But alhmadulillah I’m one of the fortunate ones that does not have to endure post natal depression.

tried sleeping after, but i was extremely eager to go home, at 2 p.m we packed our stuff and picked aira up from the nursery and made our way back to my parents' place :)

as i was resting, we've been receiving beautiful messages from all our friends congratulating us! and some even came over to do it personally... it was really nice and i was touched.

we were just getting acquinted with baby aira, but she was well behaved... you know the usual stuff, they cry cause they're either hungry, wet, or uncomfortable.

but it doesn't matter cause we were not leaving her side...

the day she was born

08.09.08
many expected that it'll be sometime this week, but i did not specifically say when... the doctor told us that if by the due date there's no signs of labor, we could choose her birthdate. we spoke about it, and decided it should not go a day longer. so it's 08.09!

woke up early in the morn, feeling excited and nervous, can't blame me now, can you? i knew i was going to induce today, but i didn't know the whole process or mumbo jumbo. we walked into the labor ward, and hubs had to proceed with the paper work, i however, had to make my way to the labor room and change into something that is supposedly comfortable but not to my liking! yeah yeah, at this point i know there's not much options for me.

so first things first, the midwife had the solution poked into my hand to make sure baby is pushed down and make her way to the canal. sounds easy eh?

it's not! the journey for her was pretty long, well as long as 11 hours! teehee.
i managed to brave my contractions from 8 a.m til 2 p.m til it was getting unbearable! i was telling the midwife, but she kept on convincing me, "you're doing fine... your tolerance level for pain is pretty good!" i was like, "yeah? wanna bet?" i wanted to perform the 'stonecold stunner' on her! even if i could bare the pain then, it was just getting worse and worse. so just bring out my best friend mr. epi and get the anesthesiologists’ ass here pronto!

and so they did...

but aside from trying my very best to maintain/control the pain, the anesthesiologist wasn't much of help then... you know how it works with epi, you have to insert the needle in between the backbone! and yes, let me highlight it again! IN BETWEEN! she kept on poking my bone, like 4 times, and apologized. "oh, sorry... we have to do it again, ok?" i said "i didn't have much of a choice now do i?" ahhh... finally, some peace! i managed to sleep for a good hour before i could feel the contractions on the left side of my stomach. yikes. told em to increase the dosage, instead they did something else.

by eve about 5-6 p.m i was already 7-8 cm dilated, and in total pain. so the midwives decided to help me out. hubs was asked to leave the room, i felt sick and sad at the same time. he held my hand, i looked at him and asked for forgiveness, if i had sinned him. he teared and said, please don't say that ok? everything is going to be fine, we're going to have a baby girl. Was in so much pain, but his words made me feel so alive! (wah… dramatic-nye!). i however, wanted to get the pain off my mind, i started making conversations with the midwives in between the contractions. i must admit, i loved every bit of their support! they were really my cheerleaders!

finally, before the prayer time of maghrib, i gave birth to a baby girl, who weights 3.325 kgs, with 50.5 cm for height. my little precious baby grrrl Nadyne Aira, was shown to me for less than 2 seconds til they had to rush her to the nursery to be monitored and put under the incubator.

but alas, alhamdulillah... everything went well...

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just a heads up. am up loading all the entries from the 8th of Sept onwards.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

promise

okay its a promise, i have been writing my blog just haven't had the time to post it up yet.

and yes will be putting up her new pictures too!

her 'merengek' photos while her grandma bathes her, her sleeping photos and ermm.. more sleeping photos cause that's what she just loves doing.

am loving every bit of being a mommy to my precious one even with the sleepless nights! :)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

ergh

i just wrote an extremely long entry and when i clicked publish post it disappeared! it wasn't even saved in drafts.

shaitzer~

will continue another day then...

Sunday, September 7, 2008

blabbing

mom's making my favorite food for buka tonight!

it's my tok wan's (grandpa's) nasi tomato, with ayam masak merah, and some special sambal with chili padi. can't wait. it's been yonks since i last had that...

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hopefully if all goes well this week, at my parents house there will be 3 generations under a roof! parents, us and my little aira.

spoke to my girl friend yesterday, she said the pain she had to endure was worth it, as in every minute of it. i hope i'll be as strong as she was...

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was extremely touched by my girl friend nadia for the beautiful moses basket! it sure will come in handy! thanks for all the advises and notes love. it means the world to us.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

dins at bianco

yesterday in the afternoon til the eve, hubs and i were pretty puzzled about dins! i refuse to eat at home, and i thought since i've got couple of days to splurge i might as well take full advantage of it.

told him i wanted to treat him to a nice new restaurant, wondering and pondering - we decided to check out this new restaurant at tropics, damansara perdana called bianco. this restaurant is predominantly white, with a whimsical of nautical theme. i liked the ambiance, plus it was raining when we got there, felt kind of romantic.

its been nice, we've been spending quality time together. just the two of us. although i know, we have been doing this for the last well, almost 10 years! we still don't get bored of each others company... hehe... we were actually on a date tonight.

didn't order any starters as we're afraid we might get too ambitious to eat too much, so i ordered pasta with chicken and mushroom cream, and hubs ordered pizza carne - pepperoni, chicken slices, olives, cheese and etc. thought we were going to stop right after, but we continued with their sinful banoffee pie! its pretty good, but can't beat alexis.

all in all we thoroughly enjoyed it all together. its not that expensive. their pasta ranges from RM14-RM20, and pizza from RM16-RM20. the desserts are from RM9-RM15 its not too bad huh? i know i enjoyed it.

*psst, in case you live around damansara perdana they do deliveries too!*

it was a pleasant eve with hubs.

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Friday, September 5, 2008

yeay, she's back!

as i was laying, and layaning the bed... since i'm allowed to, i'm nesting right... my phone rang! i couldn't believe my eyes, its ms. shakhiraa!! woohoo she's back. i'm super glad and excited... hehe... yes, i know am behaving and i sound like a little girl...

i'm just happy and glad.

unfortunately i can't go galavanting and do our routine food hunt! but but but that's besides the point i'm just so glad she's back. really missed her.

it put a smile to my face :)

Thursday, September 4, 2008

just a few more days...

was awaken by the horrible sound of the alarm! had to get ready and head straight to the hosp, but it wasn't as straight forward as that... the jam was horrible. i'm sure you can imagine, its the traffic before office hours, and i pun pandai-pandai agreed to the appointment at 940 a.m.

*silly me, smack on the forehead*

anyway, got there and waited for a good one hour. doc said that everything looks good, baby's in position, heads engaged... if all goes well it'll be by next week. alhamdulillah. relieved to know everything was ok... left feeling a little uncomfortable due to the examination/assessment, but its all good.

got home and crashed straight. didn't get enough sleep yesterday, oh well my fault, i slept late. received a couple of messages from friends asking my status now, and wishing me luck... and to all the mommies, thanks for the advice, i am enjoying every minute of my sleep now! don't worry. to all my non mommy friends, thanks for all the concern/well wishes messages.

it's just a couple of days to go, till i have my baby grrrl in my arms. prayers for our safe journey ya? thank you, much appreciated.

listening to: mushaboom, by feist

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

inconsidered fools!

since i was told that my due date would be during ramadhan i decided to totally splurge on the days i've got left to eat and drink whatever i want. so today for buka, we decided to go to taman tun's pasar ramadhan.

goodness gracious! it was packed, like sardine packed. seriously!

i know, i know am suppose to be extremely patient i was fasting, right? wrong...
seriously i was totally tested by inconsiderate pricks! here you see me walking with my bulge okay my preggy belly, and yet you don't have the slightest pity (ok maybe too extreme to pity me) but just some sense of decency to wait til its your turn cause i was there first! you insist on cutting my line? what in the hell?

i was totally and utterly sad by their behaviors. i mean, there's no such thing as having the privilege of being a pregnant women and you get the best of service around! even the sellers were blinded i think. they didn't seem to respond well to those whose been standing waiting for their turn!

ergh, ok enough ranting and all.

just thought i'd share it with you guys, next time you see a pregnant lady... make her feel special, let her go first, there's no harm in that... also make sure you're a little bit more considerate, look around and see if you can do more good (after all it is fasting month!), you wouldn't want to be stepping on other peoples toes right?

*deep down in my heart, i was just hoping and wishing they'd go through the exact same feeling i had, while i was shunt aside! but that's rather unhealthy as you're suppose to fast and think of all the good things... it was rather hard for me...*

-disappointed mommy-

Monday, September 1, 2008

first day of ramadhan

just about to sleep, this is my favorite part of bulan puasa... waking up during sahur! i just love it, thank goodness dad trained us well enough for this part. am just gearing my self up... hopefully insyallah i would like to complete my first day of puasa, however if it gets too tough for aira and i then i would have no choice but to give in.

oh well, wish me luck! need to see how its going to be for me...

hoping the nasi with sambal ikan bilis and ayam masak merah is good enough to last me for the day... what did you have for sahur?

i think i should also start on my second batch of cookies, just to keep my self occupied during the day!