hush and listen

when one speaks to me about their problems and issues, i think the best thing to do is just to listen. not to get emotionally involved, cause that just takes its toll on you.

what do you think?

the weeping weekend

last sunday, i cried.

after a gorgeous morning with the family, i put my tot to bed and rested with her... after the swim and the hearty breakfast we took our shower, only to realize the rest of my toiletries and under garments are packed in hubs' bag. him being him, took his sweet time measuring the apartment for some fixtures, and decided to get ready there instead.

we had a 12.30 lunch date with our usual 'kaki' at kavitha's which i have been looking forward to the whole week, "pathetic" i know. while waiting, there had been too many mis comm happening at the same time.

after half an hour i called hubs and he said he was already on the way to kavitha's, and tears flowed down, WITHOUT ME? why-oh-why? was i left behind? plus i felt vulnerable without those briefs. gah. what made it worse, i had lost it all when i was talking to him which was rather uncalled for. ok, there i admit, i was wrong... and i'm sorry; but i was really upset (in my defense)

all said and done, the day ended pretty great, not in the sombre mood. i spent the whole day with the tot, but left her when we met up with another 'kaki makan' peeps for dins! we headed to bukit bintang for some good seafood, well that was the rave reviews we got... honestly, i think the only good stuff there was the FATTY JUICY PRAWNS with chili padi, utter yummness.

so there, that's how the sunday went.

this is whats left from what we ordered, that says a lot about our LOT, NO?

but i felt i was robbed off the weekend, like as though it did not exist! damn..

i'm looking forward to this coming weekend, maybe there would be more time for me to spend with the tiny tot who is actively running and a super chatter box. everyday, i thank god for her presence in my life. blessed, amin.

paranoia, as cordial can be?

i feel that paranoia is the devils best friend; its no longer idle hands.

every time you sit not wanting to think about anything, your mind starts wondering and questioning, especially when you have ample of time on your side.

you wonder, why this and that. why did your friend questioned you the way they did earlier, on your absence. why didn't they return your call, or smses. why aren't they making any effort to see you even if its only for 20 minutes. (see where this is going?)

that is why i think it is best to just keep your gap shut and keep your self occupied; at least you wouldn't start being paranoid over the smallest darnest things.

on a different note, even though you're in an extremely uncomfortable situation being surrounded by people you hardly dig, vice versa it's best to be cordial... as cordial can be. if they have no qualms, you shouldn't too. don't over react, they might use it against you. so be cordial. yes cordial, as cordial can be.

signing off - listening to the soulful voice of adele 'hometown glory'

out with the old, in with the new

it feels like it has been a decade since i last had an entry; yes for 2009 at least. i would like to blame it all on the fact that i have been extremely occupied with work, but that would mean i'd be lying! or the fact that i've been constantly keeping my self busy by cooking/reading/cleaning, or entertaining my baby at all times... *yes i do these things but not excessively more like in moderation*

so 09' is gone, towards the end i think the only thing i've been thinking about is to 'detox everything from it', not that i'm complaining about the the year, some good - some bad - some had holy smokes for an effect but all in all, it came and we conquered it. *amin*

you know, i feel that i have been taking the short way out, instead of writing is what i love doing, i tweet. yes, bored of hearing bout twitter? or fb status updates... i know, i know... but yes i succumbed to the social pressure (smiles sheepishly); but i must justify, it is convenient. 2010 is filled with all sorts of status updates on their new years reso - i somehow feel that it is best to do the walk instead of the talk. it's all about the yip-yapping.

this is refreshing! i do miss writing, even i might not have anyone reading it... it just makes me feel happy.

yes it is the 2nd day into jan, but am already looking forward to the second week of february towards all the action that we've been dying to have and a well deserved one, after all the hard work put into 2009. so long, now.

watching: julie & julia. "you can never have enough butter"

just a lil update

work has been hectic, no not me servicing our clients what so ever... just hectic in the office... suddenly from an account exec i'm currently helping out with the finance and hr paperwork. then i was informed yesterday that i will have to monitor the traffic of work that comes in and out of the office! does that mean i'm up for a promotion? *i sure like to think so!*

it has been a good year since we have started our agency, alhamdulillah. it gets more and more challenging; but i have improved my skills now, not only i'm good at talking (either it makes sense or not it's totally out of the question ok!) i'm learning how to use new design softwares! weee-peeee, so prouddaaa me!

okay aside from all boring stuff bout work, my baby had her first biscuit on her own today! hee... such a nice side, and i think i'll be making her rice porridge real soon. can't wait.

was at the gym yesterday despite having a slight fever and a bad sore throat, i just had to sweat it out and hit rpm! gila i just love the adrenalin rush! so fulfilling... and i just hope i could lose these couple of pounds, haha wtf who am i kidding, these few kgs!! blergh. wish me luck.