too late now

its been rather weird
i feel rather awkward
situation permits for an emotional roller-coaster
but that would be rather unnecessary
i may like to embellish
but i don't like to dramatize
not asking for sympathy
nor empathy

really i think i should explain
i'm a simple person
it's easy to make me happy
all it takes is just a message
i don't expect much from anyone
but what i don't understand is
why to a certain extend i feel that
every single thing i do is being
measured, compared, and weighed

...i find it bizarre
all i mean is well
have i been unfair?
i sit back and wonder
i've been rather equal
maybe that's just what i feel
maybe that's not what you see

just trust me
i put others ahead of things
only then i realize, i'm the only one
left behind, catching up slowly
with both arms trying to reach
and finally
i lose all tracks of sight
and i decide
its no longer worth the fight
so i guess its a good time
to say my goodbye...